Marijuana Addiction Recovery

Hello,

Its been a couple weeks since I posted, things are going fine, I was on vacation, and have been busy with work / business projects. I will be back the blog this week as time allows. For times like this, I created the forums so that everyone could interact, please check them out. You can register for the forums by registering for the blog or by clicking here.

Because I am sure you all are wondering, I have smoked 3 times in the past two weeks, and haven’t smoked since Friday. Haven’t bought it at all!

How Do I quit smoking weed? 

I slipped up again and smoked last night.   This was the first relapse in a long time —-more than 3 weeks.  Over the last week I had been drinking more than I normally do - well more than normal when I was smoking pot multiple times per day.     I ended up having about 5 beers last night, then smoking a bowl.  

 I knew I didn’t *want* to smoke weed, but I decided to follow everyone out.  I knew I didn’t want to smoke, but I joined the circle.  I knew I didn’t want to smoke weed, but I lit up and took a puff, and held that smoke down for what felt like an eternity.   The act of smoking was so a release, almost like peeing after holding it too long.    For a few brief moments, I enjoyed myself.   

Reality hit pretty hard, I had just broken a great sober streak, and now I felt like shit.   I was stoned, paranoid, and depressed, so I went home and sat alone and stared at the wall for about an hour.   When I tried to stop smoking weed in the past, every time  I slipped up, I felt like it was the end of the world, sunk into a depression, and got ridiculously stoned for weeks.   When I hit rock bottom, I would try to quit again.  

 I am always learning and learned a lot from my previous attempts to kick the habit.  Somewhere in my mind, at some point, last night, I made a decision to smoke pot.   I am still thinking heavily on this to see if I can find the exact point, so that I can identify and avoid it in the future.   Did I get drunk to have an excuse to smoke, did I drink because I couldn’t smoke.   Did I go out with friends, with the knowledge that weed would be around, and I might stumble upon it?    I am still on the bandwagon, and my resolve has not changed.   Last night may have made it even stronger.  The guilt I felt from smoking completely ruined the experience, and I don’t want to go through all the negative feelings I get when I smoke weed.

How do I quit smoking weed?    One step at a time.   I had some clarity last night (amazing despite the beer and weed), it made me realize that this is a major process to undertake - and will take time.   I can’t just quit smoking weed, I have to change my entire lifestyle to be substance free if I really want to succeed.

For the first timers at the site, a guest has been posting with some excellent and insightful comments and questions. He / She goes by “anonymous.”

Anonymous had an excellent comment on my last post:

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I’m not a psychologist or therapist, but…
To the casual observer, it appears that you’re swapping one mind-altering substance for another.
Having worked in the addiction recovery field, it’s quite common.

At least you realize the folly of avoiding booze, or at least drunkenness. Honestly, if you’re trying to get life on track, I firmly believe that a period of unaltered consciousness (i.e. NO mind-altering substances whatsoever. If you stay 100% clean for a period of time, you can have mental and emotional clarity to deal with whatever issues you have in life that bring about the need or desire to “get f***d up”.

It doesn’t matter whether it’s alcohol, marijuana, cocaine, heroin, meth, PCP, LSD, Valium, or cough syrup. They all tweak your mind in some way, shape or form. Stay away from them all in order to get your life on track. At some point, perhaps you will be able to apply some moderation and enjoy a temporary altered state of consciousness.
Perhaps not.

I have a couple questions, though…
In your eyes, is drinking acceptable and smoking marijuana not acceptable simply because of the legal status of one over the other?

Why did you choose to quit smoking pot and not quit drinking?

Have you truly analyzed the unmanagibility in your life and traces it back specifically to marijuana? How are you so certain it’s not alcohol bringing these ills to fruition in your life?

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Yes there have been long periods of time where I didn’t drink, but still smoked pot. I smoked pot on a regular basis, before I ever drank on a regular basis. I would say I have never ‘craved’ drinking like weed.

Drinking is acceptable, within moderation.
Smoking pot is acceptable within moderation.
Consuming or doing X is acceptable within moderation.

Failing the ability to moderate is the problem….it has shown up with marijuana…and truthfully, to a lesser extent alcohol.

With alcohol, I can flip a switch and stop for the evening, or for the year…..marijuana has eluded me in that fashion…but I am working on it.

The unmanagability is due to the long term stoner mindset that aquired, rather than the need to go drinking.

Hey Y’all,

I have been really busy in the last week.  I am working on the site almost everyday, but many of the changes, you just can’t see!   The week has been good - I have stuck to not smoking pot, but have drank quite a bit of booze this week, and I haven’t gone to the gym.   Drinking became a reason for relapse thelast time I quit, so I need to stick away from getting drunk, and that whole bar scene.

Now that I haven’t smoked in a while, I can see clearly what my life has become, and how I am unhappy about it.   I feel like I have a HUGE amount of work to do in order to achieve the life I want to live.   Dope always held me back, but now I feel like I have about 10 years of work to do in 2 or 3!   I haven’t had a girlfriend in about a year, don’t have a lot of friends outside of the bar, and am broke!    This is better than rock bottom though, I am rising up…..and I have a girl in mind.

In reading the comments on this blog, many people have different ideas as to what Marijuana addiction means on a personal, and cultural level.

Many people here are personally affected by marijuana addiction and abuse. Some suffer themselves, and others suffer indirectly through family members or friends abusing cannabis.

Culturally, we seem to express marijuana addiction as a “lesser addiction” than many of the “hard drugs” like cocaine, heroin, or pcp.   Because of the different symptoms and behaviors compared to other addictions, the hazardous effect of marijuana is sometimes downplayed.  Many believe that marijuana addiction simply doesn’t exist - it certainly causes backlash and disbelief.

I would like to get everyones personal view of marijuana addiction. This topic is currently being discussed in the Marijuana Support Forums. You can go directly to Defining Marijuana Addiction. OR

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I have been working away at getting my backlog of “to be done while not stoned” activities.   I will be filing my income tax for the first time in a couple of years :(  - should be interesting to see if I get a refund, or if I owe money.

The hard part of having quit marijuana is starting to take hold.   Today is an example of a day where I feel like I have accomplished a whole lot, and a reasonable reward would be to have a puff at the end of the night.  This *would* be reasonable if I could limit what I smoked, but if I bought a bag, I would smoke through it without control until it was gone.

So I guess the 2 week mark is where the cravings have started to kick in.  I have lost steam at around this time period in previous attempts.  I have to keep myself busy and my mind focused.  It’s helpful to remind myself that I am addicted to marijuana, and can’t control my consumption like most other people.  Just because I haven’t had any in two weeks, doesn’t mean I am cured.  There is still a long way to go!

Hell Ya. Day 14 and going strong although I did go out to the pub last night and have about 5 beers. I haven’ t done that in a long time, and woke up feeling a little hungover this morning. I think i am a little allergic to beer - I get congested in the morning after drinking more than 2 beer. Normally I don’ t learn my lesson, but I think that I need to put in a 2 beer maximum rule into effect. This will help me save a lot of money to boot.

I have saved about $150 bucks because I quit smoking weed. It feels really good to write that statement. I just wish I could get back the $25,000 I spent over the years. Ugg!

My sleep habits are still way off - I wish I could nap at work during the day.

I seem to have a lot of time on my hands this weekend, because I haven’t been smoking….My new hobby is gorging myself on food. I am so full right now that I think I could pass out and hibernate until the middle of April.

Pretty much all I did this weekend was stay at home and work on the site. The forums are functioning properly - so come on in and check them out! Everyone is welcome to create their own journal in the Members Area.

I’m going to be working hard to make this forum a success. If you have any questions, please contact me on the forum or @ admin@marijuan-addict.com.

Hello Everyone!

I am pleased to announce that the Marijuana Support Forum is up and running.

To register as a user on the forums, please visit the Registration Page.   Your password will work on both the blog and forums.  Existing blog users can login to the forum using their regular blog passwords.  Please note:  You may receive two confirmation emails.  I am working on a fix for this today.

There are 3 forum topics thus far.   Marijuana Addiction, Research and News, and Member Journals.   The Member Journals area is your place to share your story about quitting marijuana!

I will be making changes over the next couple of weeks to the themes and control panels.  Please bear with me during this time.

Peace

Hello Everyone,

As stated in my previous posts, I will be starting a Marijuana Addiction Support forum on this site.   I have been playing with different pieces of Forum software for a few hours and am almost ready to roll on out for The Marijuana-Addict website.    I am trying to get the Blog and Forum to talk to each other so that you only need to login once.  Once I have that completed, I will open the forums up for everyone to use.