This is basically how my mind functions when I am stoned and need to get something important accomplished.
I have gone through days of being stuck in a stoned stupor with a loop like this playing in my head. This is one of my major reasons for wanting to quit smoking marijuana. A-motivational syndrome is real and has been devastating to my personal and work life. Sometimes, I will let my laundry stack up for weeks at time, while I sit in front of the computer or TV stoned and bored. Bills and Rent dont get paid on time, I don’t know how much money is in my bank account, and I eat fast food instead of preparing meals. Anything to do less, while I sit in my cannabis coma. When I run out of pot, one of the first things I do is clean up my house! Finding the next bag has been something I am good at. I will have to formulate so strategies for avoiding and deflecting those situations.
Imagine what it is like to always be telling yourself “I have to do this”, “I am going to do that”, and never getting off of your ass to do it. It feel guilty for not following through on the promises to myself. Learning how to quit smoking marijuana will help me grow in other areas of my life and accomplish other goals.
It has taken me years to actually do something constructive and and quit smoking pot by tackling the issue head on.
With the hours counting down……..
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Hi,
Oh my goodness, that is so like me! I have to….I have to… I have to… to the extent I get angry when that phrase runs through my head.
Very good video!
Sounds, so familiar it’s scary! Get off your ass! But just sit there and smoke another…and think about all the things you are not doing.
Hi,
hahaha this has been my daily routin for couple of years!! I quit know hopefully in my 4 day!!
nice vid btw
Hi,
hahaha this has been my daily routin for couple of years!! I quit now hopefully in my 4 day!!
nice vid btw
I am watchin my Lovely, intelligent, handsome, confident, talented, funny, sensitive, Son waste his life chasing those little bags to keep him from dealing with his real problems. Something very terrible happened in his earlier youth that and since its been a gradual thing with, “those evil little bags”. He confides in it, he promises it, its his best friend, his girlfriend, his father, his mother, his whole life. Only once every blue moon do I ever see a very rare glimmer of his former self. My Son!
Daily toker, all day every day. I’m opposite, I smoke and get lots of energy. I toke in the morning and then it’s go go go, to the gym, house cleaning on weekends and evening, my house is always immaculate… but I don’t like to be high when I’m working with clients, and that’s where my problem is (well one of them). The very fact that I’m dependent on weed to do important things bugs me…
Yeman, the thing is i never saw it this way… i would wake up, id be in the gym, then id go to lectures then id do my homework then go for a jog maybe, make dinner, tidy up and then at like 10pm id smoke my first joint… when you have time to chill out, i smoke, if i have things to do, i dont…. unfortunately, my problem is the craving convinces me that ive finished everything i need to do…. but there is a difference between need and want no? i may have done all those chores, but if sober, perhaps i would have reached even higher??? we will see what time will give… the more u realise you have a prob, the quicker you’ll find the right formula to move out of the habit…. even if nothing works… the fact that u are trying the different methods and are concious of your proble, eventually itl work out… i urge those who choose to neglect the reall longterm potential effects to consider the complexity of the human psyche… animals survive without drugs, so so can we, its just willpower. Weed should be used as a tool for creativity or when you really cant get your head round a philosophy or something… just as all drugs have their place in speeding up the evolution of man… when you can quit for a year, then you should try go back to smoking say at the first saturday of every month… i believe that would actually increase your wellness of being without the cravings and such…. also, not letting your social side dictate itself by your smoking habit should allow you to separate yourself from the addictive side… every month smoke the biggest joint ever by yourself with a couple problems you have pinned up against the wall and a really good movie and i think everyone should have to do that every month… by law!!! just find the will to keep it at that level of use….. POWER of the MINDAH!!!!
that was really scary when you wrote “When I run out of pot, one of the first things I do is clean up my house”
this is what I have done so many times week after week.
its like we all come to the same daily routine once we are stoned 24/7 (less sleep).
I didnt know others are doing the exact same thing, gotta stop smoking this crap
i found this disturbing – i dont want to be like this but i am. seeing it made me realize that i am not the only one and that i need to use my time more constructively. i too let my laundry go for weeks – if not months sometimes – i have not held onto a job for years, luckily i have a job that i can run from home but of course, i let that run down. i have to make my own schedule and all i want to do is watch tv and get high. i feel like my family is in a financial crisis because of me and my addiction. 18 years of smoking has surely been long enough! i want to quit but i have resin and have been smoking that instead of calling a dealer. i know it is not quitting since now all i think about when i wake up is the fucking resin. and i hate that shit!! but it gets me high without having to spend any money so i love it. i have two children and they are wonderful but i find myself being short with them and i know they dont deserve it. i never thought my life would be like this. i feel guilty telling anyone that i am trying to quit because i am still smoking the resin and now i feel like a loser for not quitting. at least before i could be high as hell and i would forget about my feelings of guilt. that is so sad…. i would rather smoke myself into denile than deal with my reality. addiction runs in my family – not that that is any excuse – but it has been something i have known my whole life. my hubby is from a clean family and he is clean too and super patient with me – i have a great family and could not ask for more – except the money. we have serious financial issues and i cant help but feel like that is my fault. i am trying to change but i never thought it would be this hard. thanks for letting me get that off my chest!! wow – i feel better
This is totally my boyfriend. Hopefully if I show him your stuff he’ll realize what he’s doing and quit.
Its been my life off and on for 29 years. Im so damn tired of it.
I can completely relate to this… it’s sad, isn’t it? Sometimes my house will get so messy that I am embarassed to have friends over, and especially family. But that’s the problem when you are stoned, it takes so long to get ready to clean that you never are ready.
It’s been in the back of my mind for years but i think im actually serious thiiis time…..I started smoking when i was 12, im 29 years old now. I’m lucky to have gotten this far in fairly decent condition. the hardest part to me is realising that i have to say goodbye to weed. never again scares me, but its the only way. i just cant be a weekend smoker. all or none. Im getting lazy, tired, headaches, i dont give my son the attention he needs. Im financially stagnant, drugs ruined my marriage and the last time i felt truly happy was about 2 years ago. I’ll love you forever mary but i have to let you go….. wow i feel better admitting all that… i know to anyone reading this its pathetic, but ive never admitted any of that. I always defend weed, cos i dont wanna stop. Weeds not just a habbit, its a lifestyle. its the way you talk, who you talk to, what you read. its everything. Light smokers wouldnt understand that. But heavy smokers know. Good video, ive been looking beyond this couch for years, just never gone there
exactly how i feel right now
but i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee the cannnneeebiss 
all those comments are picture perfect Me…
I remember when i was somebody, active social life, self respect, being generally happy, havin plans and all of dat. I’ve been smoking for 6 years and im 21 now. I just wish i could stop but every attemp to stop has failed… It fucked every part of my life and me, its that bad. But i know i can quit, just dont know when… Thx for the info and comments it actually helps to know that im not the only one with dis.
Hope
I don’t do a lot of those things….my house is clean and fairly organized. I do my laundry. I exercise and eat healthfully. I go to my professional job every day and get there on time. I even get regular kudos from my boss about the good job that I do.
BUT……
I say no to social events and such so that I can spend the day or days by myself in a stoned stupor. My memory has gone from bad to worse. I hate my life and I am full of shame. I am extremely lonely and I stay isolated. I have let friendships lapse. Because I have held things together, in a certain way, it has helped me to be in serious denial about my problem. I have determined that come hell or high water, I will lick this problem and improve my life. Somehow, someday……..
For over 40 years it’s been “nothing you can do
top! All you who posted B4
about it so just get stoned and forget about it”.
Getting high is better than not getting high but this
every day all day shit has wasted so many years!
i’ve quit several times for as long as 2 to 4 years but
eventually i see life is no better for not smoking
weed and start again.
here i am again though, all day…….every day.
This shit has got to s
Me LET’S DO THIS NOW
AHA i smoke bud but im always ready 4 anything homie
Wow the house cleaning comments struck me to the core. I’ve been smoking for 20 years and over time have become a recluse in my messy home. I used to clean up when I got to the end of a bag but I don’t even do that now. After years of not maintaining a clean home I have habitualized myself into believing I can’t ever get it done. I never thought there would be a day when my self worth would be so low that I don’t believe I can accomplish a task as simple as cleaning but here I am. I rarely to never have people into my home due to my shame. I’m sick of getting high and not feeling any differently so recently I’ve been thinking about how much I would like to quit. I let myself run out for up to 3 days before restocking (unheard of for me) just to see if I can do it without freaking out. However when I do smoke after abstaining I feel bat sh*t crazy, not relaxed and high. So I smoke myself into oblivion until it feels normal which leaves me annoyed I’m not feeling the high. Circuitous logic and BS of the highest order. I haven’t smoked for 3 days but only because I couldn’t hook up today. I am supposed to get some soon but I don’t want to. Easy to say when it’s just not available but when I know I can get it I cave. The only hope I have is the discomfort of withdrawal because how many times do I want to go through the unpleasantness of that? Beyond everything I’ve mentioned, I am most exhausted from all the inchoate thoughts that I wish we’re complete streams of thought I can express with ease, not a “great” idea that trails off until it disappears like dissipating smoke. I have a lot to offer and nothing to give with the lifestyle I have chosen. I used to justify pot by choosing it over alcohol – ‘Well you never see potheads in a fist fight.’ Its a generalization yes but I think it’s true-ish because pot takes the fight out of a person. I know I smoke to suppress anger and it feels good to disconnect from it but in turn I have disconnected from my entire self, not just the angry bits. And the anger I have towards myself for being a do nothing chronic far exceeds all the bad tempered moments I’ve smoked away. Pot has always been the constant that won’t abandon me but now it feels like my dark passenger I can’t shake… forgive the Dexter reference. Thanks to all the truthful posts that gave me the courage to be honest too.
OMFG soooo true…..ive been saying this is my last spliff for the last 6 months although im not a heavy user probably only 40£ a month but seriously its hard when mates are there toking away i have to join in.
Hey, I was wondering if you feel that journaling about your problem help you beat it. I’m going through the same thing and it seems that writing down what you really intend to do, writing down all the reasons you have for doing it, would help to follow through.
Even moreso because it’s a blog so that gives you some level of public accountability. If you didn’t quit, you would kind of have to admit that here, right?
I thought I would do this by telling all my friends I was quitting (to be fair, I said I was quitting for three months just so I could see what it was like). I stopped buying weed and stopped smoking alone (I smoked alone about three times a day). But when I was in group situations and several of my friends were smoking weed – not all of them smoke but some do – I would smoke anyway. My friends would say “I thought you said you were quitting” then I was like “well I have quit buying weed and smoking alone, but I’m letting myself smoke socially.” Well after that I had no more public accountability to my friends. There’s nothing stopping me from continuing to smoke privately and avoid judgment. I haven’t bought weed since, but I’ve smoked the resin I scraped from my pipe (pathetic I know!!) and smoked it maybe 3 times total since then, the third time being about 1.5 hours ago. I feel like shit because I just ate a bunch of delivery food.
Anyway, back to my point – did blogging help? If so, do you think private journaling would help as much?
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