Even moreso because it’s a blog so that gives you some level of public accountability. If you didn’t quit, you would kind of have to admit that here, right?

I thought I would do this by telling all my friends I was quitting (to be fair, I said I was quitting for three months just so I could see what it was like). I stopped buying weed and stopped smoking alone (I smoked alone about three times a day). But when I was in group situations and several of my friends were smoking weed – not all of them smoke but some do – I would smoke anyway. My friends would say “I thought you said you were quitting” then I was like “well I have quit buying weed and smoking alone, but I’m letting myself smoke socially.” Well after that I had no more public accountability to my friends. There’s nothing stopping me from continuing to smoke privately and avoid judgment. I haven’t bought weed since, but I’ve smoked the resin I scraped from my pipe (pathetic I know!!) and smoked it maybe 3 times total since then, the third time being about 1.5 hours ago. I feel like shit because I just ate a bunch of delivery food.

Anyway, back to my point – did blogging help? If so, do you think private journaling would help as much?