Posted by admin on December 7, 2007
Thanks to all of you who have been posting comments to update me with their progress or keep me on track. Today was a great day, being that it is Friday and I have the weekend in front of me. My entire goal of Friday night is preparing for the weekend and not smoking weed at all. The weekends are usually when I smoke a tonne of weed so it will take a lot of will power and distraction to keep sober over the next 2 days. I also need to make sure I don’t substitute with alcohol - I really don’t want to trade marijuana addiction for alcoholism!
I have some withdrawal mood swings over the last 3 or 4 days. Not exactly depressed, but angry and cynical. I remember a quote “Depression is merely anger without enthusiasm”, so I am getting somewhere :) I am feeling good at the moment and looking forward to accomplishing a lot this weekend.
But hey, 1 day at a time. I have been researching new hobbies and will be putting some time into the website this weekend. I think I am going to wait a little longer before I do a major overhaul on the layout, categories, and navigation.
Posted by admin on December 6, 2007
Hey Folks,
Well, I had a little to smoke again today. I keep finding it and not saying “No”. In the grand scheme of things, this is still improvement. This weekend is going to be very tough because I usually wake and bake, then get stoned all day. I know I need to stop smoking weed, so I will be working hard toward this goal on the weekend - day by day.
Friday’s post will be much more detailed.
Good Night.
Posted by admin on December 5, 2007
Today was a pretty crappy day…I caved again and smoked….Because I repeated the pattern of going out to a pub. I did see some great live music, and meet a potentially awesome business connection, so it hasn’t all been bad….but damn, time to reset that counter back to 0.
Days Sober 0
Days Stoned 1
Posted by admin on December 4, 2007
Today started off a little slow, I am not a morning person, so morning didn’t come until about 11:00 AM today. I hate getting out of bed, but am happy to be up once I make the initial effort.
I didn’t smoke any weed today but I had two major cravings, both occurred under the same circumstances. Pretty much every time I come home, the first thing I do is pee, and the second thing I do is smoke weed. This can be a trip where I am away for a couple hours, or a couple days, the routine is always the same. Go home, and get high. Since I went out and was social today, I came home twice, and both times I really wanted to smoke badly. The first craving went away after about 5 minutes, and I am working through the second one right now. I had a great evening, I went out and had dinner with great friends, then as I was walking to my place, thought about how great the evening had been, and how much better it would be if I had something to smoke to ‘finish off the night’. These are thought processes that need to change and be replaced by something more productive.
This is the second marijuana smoking trend I have identified in myself, the first being smoking with friends I meet at the pub. So, I have to keep myself busy when I first get home and no hanging out at the pub for the rest of the week. I have a feeling my house will be very clean by Friday.
I did the deep breathing exercise 2x today, and did the moving meditation relaxation technique once as well. These both helped.
Days Sober: 2
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