Thanks to all of you who have been posting comments to update me with their progress or keep me on track. Today was a great day, being that it is Friday and I have the weekend in front of me. My entire goal of Friday night is preparing for the weekend and not smoking weed at all. The weekends are usually when I smoke a tonne of weed so it will take a lot of will power and distraction to keep sober over the next 2 days. I also need to make sure I don’t substitute with alcohol – I really don’t want to trade marijuana addiction for alcoholism!
I have some withdrawal mood swings over the last 3 or 4 days. Not exactly depressed, but angry and cynical. I remember a quote “Depression is merely anger without enthusiasm”, so I am getting somewhere 
I am feeling good at the moment and looking forward to accomplishing a lot this weekend.
But hey, 1 day at a time. I have been researching new hobbies and will be putting some time into the website this weekend. I think I am going to wait a little longer before I do a major overhaul on the layout, categories, and navigation.
Hey Folks,
Well, I had a little to smoke again today. I keep finding it and not saying “No”. In the grand scheme of things, this is still improvement. This weekend is going to be very tough because I usually wake and bake, then get stoned all day. I know I need to stop smoking weed, so I will be working hard toward this goal on the weekend – day by day.
Friday’s post will be much more detailed.
Good Night.
Today was a pretty crappy day…I caved again and smoked….Because I repeated the pattern of going out to a pub. I did see some great live music, and meet a potentially awesome business connection, so it hasn’t all been bad….but damn, time to reset that counter back to 0.
Days Sober 0
Days Stoned 1
Today started off a little slow, I am not a morning person, so morning didn’t come until about 11:00 AM today. I hate getting out of bed, but am happy to be up once I make the initial effort.
I didn’t smoke any weed today but I had two major cravings, both occurred under the same circumstances. Pretty much every time I come home, the first thing I do is pee, and the second thing I do is smoke weed. This can be a trip where I am away for a couple hours, or a couple days, the routine is always the same. Go home, and get high. Since I went out and was social today, I came home twice, and both times I really wanted to smoke badly. The first craving went away after about 5 minutes, and I am working through the second one right now. I had a great evening, I went out and had dinner with great friends, then as I was walking to my place, thought about how great the evening had been, and how much better it would be if I had something to smoke to ‘finish off the night’. These are thought processes that need to change and be replaced by something more productive.
This is the second marijuana smoking trend I have identified in myself, the first being smoking with friends I meet at the pub. So, I have to keep myself busy when I first get home and no hanging out at the pub for the rest of the week. I have a feeling my house will be very clean by Friday.
I did the deep breathing exercise 2x today, and did the moving meditation relaxation technique once as well. These both helped.
Days Sober: 2
Today was a pretty crappy day. It poured rain all day and the weather was gray. I stayed in bed a little late today, partly because I knew I had nothing left to smoke.
My internet also went down tonight, right when I wanted to do work on the site and write my journal, luckily it came back within a couple of hours.
I did not smoke weed today. This is a great accomplishment. Unfortunately, this also means that I am not tired one bit and it is close to 2:00 AM. I have an important work day tomorrow, so I will just breath deep with the lights off and attempt to get some sleep. The first day is always the hardest to get back to normal. My memory was far better last week than right now, but that will quickly improve with a couple of days of sobriety.
I really wanted to go out tonight and just get out of my place and socialize, but I decided against it. I need to get a couple of days behind me so that I can reinforce my desire to quit. I need to practice saying ‘No’ so that I can be successful is saying ‘No’ when the time comes.
Days Sober 1
Hello Everyone,
Just checking in on Sunday night before I shut things down for the evening. I have had another good day today visiting friends and keeping them entertained. Being this busy is a natural mood lifter and because of this, I know that I can stop smoking weed!
I smoked again tonight. I gathered up the last of the bag that I had and smoked it once my company left a couple hours ago. It is hard to describe my current mood. I am disappointed about the relapses that I have faced in the previous week, but am also very optimistic about my ability to stop smoking weed. You’ll notice I put a days stoned counter on the bottom of the daily journal. This is another tool to help me keep on track.
I have noticed a huge difference in my behavior and efficiency when working on my journal in the past couple of days. A motivational behavior really kicks in when I smoke weed. Its almost like when I am stoned I slip into a passive, gathering information state, whereas when I am sober, I can gather AND disseminate information effectively. I would say I about twice as fast at blogging sober than stoned.
This week I am going to be writing about some relaxation techniques I have learned or practiced in the past. Releasing stress will be a priority this week and critical to my long term success. I want to do acupuncture, just hope that medical will cover it.
I have no more pot left, and won’t be going to out much next week. See you Monday.
Days Sober 0
Days Stoned 5
Went out late tonight to watch a movie, so I’ll keep it brief. Friends are still visiting and we are having a great time. We all smoked tonight before going to a movie, so I didn’t make it through today either. Old habits die hard. I still have a tiny bit left, so we will all finish it tommorow so that I can make a clean entrance into the work week. I didn’t throw out my rolling papers and box last time. I am going to throw away all of my paraphernalia Sunday night. I don’t have any pipes or bongs anymore, so just the scissors, rollies, and weed box.
Days Sober 0
Days Stoned: 4
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