Thanks to all of you who have been posting comments to update me with their progress or keep me on track. Today was a great day, being that it is Friday and I have the weekend in front of me. My entire goal of Friday night is preparing for the weekend and not smoking weed at all. The weekends are usually when I smoke a tonne of weed so it will take a lot of will power and distraction to keep sober over the next 2 days. I also need to make sure I don’t substitute with alcohol – I really don’t want to trade marijuana addiction for alcoholism!
I have some withdrawal mood swings over the last 3 or 4 days. Not exactly depressed, but angry and cynical. I remember a quote “Depression is merely anger without enthusiasm”, so I am getting somewhere 
I am feeling good at the moment and looking forward to accomplishing a lot this weekend.
But hey, 1 day at a time. I have been researching new hobbies and will be putting some time into the website this weekend. I think I am going to wait a little longer before I do a major overhaul on the layout, categories, and navigation.
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Well, I screwed up tonight.
Took only one hit of some killer homegrown and caught a buzz, surprisingly. Only thing is that it felt like crap. I felt all jittery like I was having a panic attack. Weirdest thing that ever happened to me smoking weed.
Good thing is that I didn’t have any more and declined an offer of some free buds to take home with me. So while I am really disappointed in myself, I’m glad I didn’t smoke more and bring that crap home with me.
So my tally of weedless days starts over. But tomorrow is a new day and I will not smoke. No sense in dwelling on tonight. Plus I won $200 on tonight’s fights so I guess it wasn’t all that bad. And no, I won’t be buying weed with that money.
Keep your head up and stay focused, as hard as it may seem. You can do it.
Hey Admin, I am definitely rooting for you. Mainly because I am quitting as well (after 11 years). I love the idea of writing down all the negative things about smoking to keep you motivated. I have quit smoking cigs many many times, so I know how it is about relapsing.
I am hoping that I can successfully quit smoking for the following reasons:
1) I have finally mentally convinced myself that it is harming me. This was the first step for me when I quit smoking cigs.
2) I live in a college town and most of my friends who smoke have left, so the temptation has greatly dimished.
3) I am currently out of town for work until Friday with absolutely no access to weed.
4) My wife doesn’t smoke (anymore for 4 years now), but has never really given me a hard time about it or ever demanded that I quit. However, when I told her on Sunday that I was going to quit, she was very supportive.
5) After I get back in town from work we will be going on a 2-week visit to the inlaws, so I am hoping that 4 weeks of not smoking will do the trick.
Anyway, I really appreciate this blog, especially because you are being honest with your relapses. I really hate when I tell people I am going to quit something, and then relapse (this happened with cigs countless times), so telling my wife that I am quitting is a big step for me.
Keep us posted and good luck..
I’m jumping on board today. I smoked a ton of weed earlier today and am not even high anymore. My tolerance level is way too high and I sense that my memories abilities have been hindered ever since I started smoking marijuna.
+1 to the amount of addicted users trying to quit
Hi Admin,
Good for you in taking such important steps in your recovery. It’s refreshing to hear your honesty. I’m getting ready to throw my stash away either tonight or on New Year’s. I realize how much it affects me (I’ve actually known this for quite a while) and I’m tired of feeling numb. Even though I really only smoke at night when I get home from work, it still is a problem for me because I veg out too much at night and sit around just watching tv.
I think you’re doing a great job in your recovery process. Don’t be too hard on yourself.
Mood swings and withdrawal..
Tell me about it..
I made the all important decision last week monday, but by wednesday, i was so grumpy with everyone, that i dug around wherever i could and scraped a small bowl together and smoked it at 11 pm on wednesday night.
By then , nothing was around to make me grumpy so it seemed pointless, but i just had to feel the buzz again for some reason.
im still fighting it though. i used to smoke about 6-10 bong hits per day, every day…due to various excuses ive created, i have smoked at night on 4 occasions, smoking weed i cunningly lifted from my friends bag…
i feel guilty, i feel like im halting the inevitable, but this website really does help, more than you might think.
so ill keep checking in daily, write an update, and continue to become THC free!
I sympathize with what you are going through and wish you well! Thank you for starting a blog on this topic. I know many people who find themselves in similar situations.
I need to stop smoking weed! My eight year old son now knows what I do, he tells me Papi I thought you was going to stop smoking drugs? I’ts terrible the desire to smoke more weed, my best friend is a big pot head who likes to buy weed by the oz’s. I’ve been smoking weed for over 24 years! weed brings me a feel of euphoria when I smoke and listen to salsa, I’ve got to start somewhere but where?
I WISH US POT HEADS THE BEST IN QUITTING…
Today is my 4t day clean. I have been trying (in my mind) to quit since January, but just now took the initiative to stop.
this really inspired me. after 10 years of cannabis abuse i have been wanting to quit for some time now. i have never been able to find articles that helped in regards to this addiction until finding this. thank you. i start today.
I’m on my 7th day ov quiting afta smoking for 10 years i’m now 22… I have try several times b4 and always
Ended up smoking agen… Reading off this site haz opened my eyes
A lot… I’m now determined to stop and doin well (I think)…. I’m havin the most
Ruthless side affects.. Twitchy, mood swinges, VERY wierd dreams.
But with the eating and sleeping I hav gone the other way I’m eating more
And sleeping a hell of a lot more then bfore…
Hey folks, been smoking weed for 15 years every day I need to give it up as I feel it’s stopping me living my life to the full. I have also noticed that my moods are crazy I seem just to be in my own world most of the time. Day 2 of being off weed and all is well, I hope my girlfriend sticks with me through this hard time I know I am going to be hard to deal with until I am clean in body and mind.
Thank God for this website. It helps to know I am not a freak. Have been smoking for well over 25 years. Just like so many others I was just an occasional smoker for a long time. Didn’t even buy it until I had a crisis in my life. Through that crisis, weed kept me from going off the deep end. But now it’s been years and I don’t like myself anymore. I have become secretive, anti-social. Feel like a fake…
It is my 3rd day without. Definitely feeling the anxiety, depression. My sleep has not been interrupted but have had the dull headache in the morning and an upset stomach after eating. I wouldn’t be eating if my stomach didn’t demand it. Nothing looks good…yuck!
Today will be my first day working without it. It used to give me such enthusiasm and this translated in my work! Afraid I won’t be as effective as I was when stoned. I think I was so afraid someone would know that I covered it up with the enthusiasm. Feeling adrift…
I’ve been smoking weed for nearly 20 years, on and off. I have one son who regularly smokes it and a 16yr old who is already smoking it. I have had this love/hate relationship with weed for all those years. My extended family do not know about my addiction, they know I smoke weed just not how much. I think this is part of the problem, I work and keep my house clean, how can I be an addict? An addict can’t hold down a job etc. etc. I amaze and shame myself at how sneaky and devious I can be, I’ve even stolen my sons weed. I find myself doing disgusting things if I run out or try to quit. I have done all the things others have said, stolen weed, gone through the bin convinced I had some somewhere. Seriously a middle aged woman pulling the house apart looking for weed!
Anyway, I am inspired by what I’ve been reading, I am not necessarily a bad person but an addict (I know there is a huge debate over cannabis’ addictive qualities, but I am addicted, even if it is all in my head!).
I am going to read more on here about preparing to give up, I am going to beat this. It’s so easy to type those words I hope I have the strength to actually carry them out. I am even procrastinating about setting a date ……. how can I want to stop so badly on the one hand but seem unable to even set a date?
Its 3 days 4 me and so far ive ranted and raved at my family, cried alot, hot and cold sweats, zero appetite, insomnia, and slighlty anxious, after smoking for 14 years, i wasnt expecting an easy ride, and after experiencing these side effects, i never want to smoke again, they are in my opinion the worse withdrawls ever, heres 2 day 4.x
Day Three – Can’t stop crying , mood swings, screaming and shouting, feeling sick, can’t sleep, constant headache, freezing cold no matter what. Had to get a couple of trains earlier and spent the entire time on the verge of a panic attack, the paranoia has got worse than ever before. My boyfriend has said its either him or the weed.
I love him so much but this is too hard.