Today was a pretty crappy day. It poured rain all day and the weather was gray. I stayed in bed a little late today, partly because I knew I had nothing left to smoke.
My internet also went down tonight, right when I wanted to do work on the site and write my journal, luckily it came back within a couple of hours.
I did not smoke weed today. This is a great accomplishment. Unfortunately, this also means that I am not tired one bit and it is close to 2:00 AM. I have an important work day tomorrow, so I will just breath deep with the lights off and attempt to get some sleep. The first day is always the hardest to get back to normal. My memory was far better last week than right now, but that will quickly improve with a couple of days of sobriety.
I really wanted to go out tonight and just get out of my place and socialize, but I decided against it. I need to get a couple of days behind me so that I can reinforce my desire to quit. I need to practice saying ‘No’ so that I can be successful is saying ‘No’ when the time comes.
Days Sober 1
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NO! ive said it before to things i dnt like. Weed however sure 1 hit won’t hurt. Before you know it I isolate myself and watch porn or play video games hours on end. I also quit and am in a mind war with myself. Even when I do sleep i have dreams that last years yet I only sleep for a few hours. People taunting me, wet dreams, seams like i can’t win. I never been a weak mind so i look forward to it as a challenge only I kick myselfs ass everytime. GIrls love me when i’m not high. I like girls the most when i am blazed. Drinking does not replace THC. Edibles however get me high as hell and knock me on my ass. However I hate paying these outrageous prices and don’t have 4 hours for them to kick in. I need some help and fast.