Journal Day 17

Posted by admin on December 8, 2007

I was sober today! Woohoo. It took a lot of work and I had to keep busy all day, but I managed to do it. The relaxation techniques really came in handy. The Sun Salutation is great way to start they day. I have also been working on breathing deeply throughout the day. If I ever struggle to take a deep relaxed slow breath, I immediately do the Deep Breathing reset, and am back in no time. I think relaxation is one of the keys to stop smoking weed.

My sleeping patterns and eating patterns are horrible, I can’t get to bed early, and I want to sleep all day. I believe that there are 2 keys here: Diet and Exercise.

My diet is really shitty. I cook for myself once or twice a week and eat junk the rest of the time, most of the exercise I do is walking too or from my vehicle to the fast food restaurant or 7-11. This was OK when I was baked constantly, but really needs to change now. I have a lot of time, so learning to cook is a great skill to develop in the mean time. Ironically, I am not overweight. I think this is because some days I only eat one meal.

I am also in poor physical shape. My natural build and body type gives me a great frame for sports and physical activities, but my cardiovascular ability has been cut in half by the amount of weed I smoked. My diet and lack of exercise made me again about 20 lbs in the last 2 years. I would like to keep the weight and lose the fat!

Till Tomorrow.

Filed Under: Marijuana Addiction

tito-bee said,

great!!, keep it going. regarding your diet I cannot understand hoy in america you people can bear eating so much junk food, no wonder its the most fat and cancerous country. I cannot tolerarte junk food, i am stoned i feel like eating veggies, fuits, anything than does not contain some form of dead animal on it.
tito-bee said,

man, keep one forum, were not too many here.

like fellow addict sais youve made a commitment and u keep relapsing, do this seriously, although i know how hard it is.
If ya wanna really explore your addiction you gotta go deeper, i find this site helpful and a good idea, but i find it shallow, withn this i mean you shoulg go into psycology, go back and see why we became addicts, art therapy, when your dreams are turned into paintings, in the nightmares u have, paint them, they show alot of your subconcious, a key factor to overcome your addiction, read about Jung and how he helped people who suffered with art therapy, art heals, remember that, when you feel a craving draw a picture of what you feel, give it form.
Cole said,

I just wanted to tell you how much I appreciate your site. I have been trying to quit for about 8 years now. I tell myself everyday that I’m going to quit, but I usually dont make it through the day w/o it. Smoking weed has cost me soo much in my life. I find myself reading yur website everyday. It’s nice to see that other people know what I’m going through.
Matt J said,

Hi.

I woke up this morning and thought, f*ck it, I’m going to do something about my drug addiction, and while having a look around some sites I found this one.

I am 19 years old and live in New Zealand I smoke weed alllll day everyday! To be honest I love it! but I need to cut down, to eventually stop, I’ll keep coming to your site to see how your are doing and compare myself to your efforts as well.

Good idea.
Meggers said,

hey, i noticed that you haven’t posted anything in quite sometimes. just wanted to know if you were ok? post something so everyone knows you’re cool…i hope you’re doing okay, i like in oklahoma and we just had a week without electricity and god it sucked. how are you?
Tani said,

Meggers, I wrote an email too asking if he is OK. I hope all is good.
tito-bee said,

hey admin, hope you´re not in amotivational syndrome, cause u havent posted in some time.
fuzzylung said,

I have been smoking for a little over 15 years. I am quitting today. I quit 3 years ago for 7 months. I felt like I had a new life. I felt like a new person. I was at the top of the world. I dont know what happened but somehow I started again. I feel sick now. My lungs hurt. My neck and back hurt. I feel its all related. I have started to get alot of chest pain about 15 min after smoking. Im upset with myself all the time for not being able to quit. When Im high I hate it and seem to have all the power in the world to quit. When Im sober I spend all my time thinking about getting high and expend alot of energy to get high no matter what. Its like a cant remember how I felt the day before. I just want to quit. Thats how I found this site. My desire to quit and my need for help is how I ended up here. I hide my smoking from everyone. I dont even have friends that smoke anymore. Even when someone talks about getting high I just act like I don’t because I hate that I am an addict. I smoke 1/8 a week. I hide pot to find later. I scrape every last bit of resin I can find. Im just sick of living like this. I ran out two days ago but I scraped my last bit from the hitter last night. So this is it for me. Im going to do it!!!!!!!!
fuzzylung said,

Im using this blog comment section to talk about my daily progress. I have not smoked in 3 days. I went running last night for about 15 min. It was not easy but about 1 hr after I ran I felt really good. Today my lungs hurt some but I think its from breathing so heavy. I have decided to start exercizing and Im trying to replace any time that I used to smoke with some kind of physical activity. Well not really because then I would be working out morning noon and night but in the evenings Im exercizing durring my usual smoking times. My dealer asked me to come over at lunch time today but I declined “for work reasons”. I’m not ready to cut him loose quite yet but thats something I’m dealing with gradually. I feel a sense of desperation sometimes and I guess I still need to know I can get some smoke if I need it. FYI Meggers I just went through the ice storm no power week too. Just got my power back last night. Anyway another day of not being high though I think I felt a little high when I was running. Maybe a little residual weed pulsing through my veins or just hypervenalating from breathingso hard to get oxygen into these crusty black airsacks I call fuzzy lungs.
tito-bee said,

keep it going fuzzy long!!! im here 2 support ya
Tani said,

Good on you fuzzylung!
Keep up the good effort, we can all do it.
Just watch for all the stuff you’ll be coughing up next, ew.
Ekim said,

Keep it up Fuzz.

I’ve screwed up once in the last month, took two hits of some kind. I’m still testing positive on the home tests I have, which kind of bums me out since that screwup was on the 9th of December. But from what I’ve read, heavy smokers can test positive for quite a while after quitting. Funny that you can have a raging coke habit and be clean in three days. You smoke weed regularly and you can be screwed for 60 days.But I guess that’s not really the point for us that are trying to quit.

I’m still finding that smoking on my mind all the time, especially when I am headed home after a long day’s work. For me there was nothing like sitting down, relaxing, and getting buzzed at that time. Hard as hell to replace that. Keeping myself busy has seemed to offset it a little bit but the desire to get high is still there in a big way. I’m fighting it by trying to keep myself isolated from it in general. I know at some point I’ll have to learn to be around it because I sure as hell aren’t losing touch with my close friends over this just because they happen to smoke as well. But for right now the best thing is to take a step back from it all.

Good luck everyone. Keep it up and stay focused.
Spencer said,

Hey Man, I’ve been following your site as a source for inspiration since the begining. I’m 4 weeks clean next Wednesday! I just want to say I’m sorry that you’ve given up on the site… Though it’s apparent that you don’t truly want to change.. I encourage you to keep at it and keep posting because as I said before, you provided inspiration. I tried to quit before but it wasnt until I truly wanted to quit that I could make a life change.
Fellowaddict said,

Admin,

Great website–I like how you keep it real and admit to relapses. It’s human and it gives us addicts insight into how difficult the process is and what is at stake. Like you, I’ve been addicted for years and have been trying to quit, with varied successs…. I just relapsed last night but reading your blog gives me new motivation–it’s nice to know we are not alone.

One of the common threads to relapse is failing to tell your pothead friends about your decision to quit. Family and non-smoking friends can also provide helpful support, but in the end it has to be about you doing for you–getting control of your own life and achieving a healthier and more conscious state of mind.
Keepitreal said,

Thanks for sharing your journey with us! I just blogging my recovery (I’m on Day 1). I hope we can inspire each other!
Ekim said,

Well, I guess he gave up on the blog. Good luck everyone.
bmmagic said,

Crap. I just joined thinking the site was active. I started smoking at age 14 and I’m now 37. I’ve quit for periods of time — the longest being about a year — but have always gone back to it.

I’m on day 6 and I’m much more focused on life’s daily activities. Coincidentally, I’m down 6 pounds too.

I’m hoping the blog starts up again.
eddie said,

i been smokin since 14 and now im 28 - i beem smokin the best weed in brooklyn and the city for about six years now - i quit 2 months ago - let me say one thing: when people say its not physical - its half true - if you stop before its too late - or if you stop before you start smokin the killas then you should be okay but if you smoke the good good shit too long you will have a week of uncomfortableness but thats not the problem because that aint nothin - its the headaches that follow from smokin the killas that will kill you - its been two months and though it has gotten much better it is not gone and seems like it will be here another month or more……..STOP BEFORE YOU GET THE HEADACHES!!!
Lunara said,

Quite smoking pot little over a week ago. I feel great about it and I won’t ever smoke it again even though I did for 9 years (and I’m only 23). The last 4 years I smoked about 5 grams a week of really good weed (live in the one country in the world where you can actually just buy it in a store, therefor the quality is a lot better then pot in other countries). I bought myself something nice when I was clean for a week with the money I saved. When I feel a bit week, I just look at it and it makes me feel really good about myself. I do sleep more than before, I thought I’d sleep a little less. And I chough up brown bits, especially after exercising, but I think that is just my lungs clearing out and nothing to worry about. I was just wondering if anyone else has the same experience. Good luck to everyone quiting!