Hello Everyone,
Just checking in on Sunday night before I shut things down for the evening. I have had another good day today visiting friends and keeping them entertained. Being this busy is a natural mood lifter and because of this, I know that I can stop smoking weed!
I smoked again tonight. I gathered up the last of the bag that I had and smoked it once my company left a couple hours ago. It is hard to describe my current mood. I am disappointed about the relapses that I have faced in the previous week, but am also very optimistic about my ability to stop smoking weed. You’ll notice I put a days stoned counter on the bottom of the daily journal. This is another tool to help me keep on track.
I have noticed a huge difference in my behavior and efficiency when working on my journal in the past couple of days. A motivational behavior really kicks in when I smoke weed. Its almost like when I am stoned I slip into a passive, gathering information state, whereas when I am sober, I can gather AND disseminate information effectively. I would say I about twice as fast at blogging sober than stoned.
This week I am going to be writing about some relaxation techniques I have learned or practiced in the past. Releasing stress will be a priority this week and critical to my long term success. I want to do acupuncture, just hope that medical will cover it.
I have no more pot left, and won’t be going to out much next week. See you Monday.
Days Sober 0
Days Stoned 5
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2 am here. Can’t sleep. Aggravated as hell. It’s like my hands go to keep reaching for a pipe and weed that’s not there. Also having a doozy of a time concentrating on ANYTHING for more than a few minutes.
Oh, well. At least I got something done with myself this weekend. Gave myself a much-needed haircut and the condo is the cleanest it’s been since I moved in two years ago. Paid some bills on time for a change…..yep, I do the same things you have. I have money but still used to miss bills because I was too dulled to give a crap. Also cooked some meals ahead of time so I can avoid fast food.
As of midnight, it’s officially been one week. The longest I’ve willingly quit in 17 years. Pneumonia had me knocked out for a week on one other occasion.
I’m not really a religious man, but I’ve been finding myself asking something or someone out there to show me I have the discipline and strength within myself to do this.
Sorry if I’m coming across as a rambling boob, but this is far more difficult than I ever thought it would be and there’s a lot of pent-up emotion here.
Good luck to you, stay focused.
Ekim,
you can do it, we all can do it. We just have to want the better life that being straight can offer you more than you enjoy the weed. This is the hard bit, as the minute you are straight you can’t think about how good it will be to stay straight.
One week is an excellent effort and it will get easier from here on in.
Keep up the good effort and good luck!
Hey to all,
I’ve been a chronic smoker for 2 years now and as a result I am not the person I know I should be.
This year I’ve enrolled in college and it has not gone as smoothly as it should have.
This has been the catalyst which I beleive can help me change my life for the better.
Ive been Weed free since last thursday, and while looking for support came across this site.
I want you to know that your journal is an inspiration to me, and I will frequent it.
Yours in addiction, Spencer
man in my opinion you should maybe have one or two main forums instead of so many, it´s hard to follow up so many topics or sections. keep it simple.
Well i am on the tapering mode, just one small pipe at night 4 a couple of weeks? then i´ll do it, scares me like shit, as much as death in my crazy mind, im a chicken too, and i canr help it, im so afraid to bear life clean.
Thank you all for the comments
Ekim, I know exactly what you are feeling. I really need keep myself busy this week to avoid a a relapse. I know I can do it, it is going to take disciple, effort, and focus. Congrats on your 1 week so far. Keep adding days.
Spencer, I got started in college, and college is about the time I quit growing personally and emotionally. I blew a lot of opportunities in school by being stoned all of the time. It makes me really upset to think of what I could have done without Marijuana and a little more confidence at that time in my life. I am still paying for those decisions today.
Cholo Barco, I agree about the categories thing, just always load the main page, it will have all the posts. I am going to overhaul the navigation next weekend.
I hear what you are saying about bearing life clean…and clean for good!
hi,
my name is Leo. at the moment am going through rough times. also, am addictied to marry jane. as a result i feel that everything i ever built is falling down, while me sitting, watching and getting high. i feel that this drug replaced my drive of living throught day. and what drives me crazy is that am aware of it. i have huge responsabilities to fullfill, and even thought it doesnt require much to fullfill them ,yet, i dont. am a smart man and very fast learning but my filthy habbit have put a cage around my brain. i realised that i have very good plans but no execution. its all in my head, i keep hours and hours thinking and the fact that i live alone doent help. i have lost alomost all my frinds because of my unstable attidute and emotions. am on my final year in university, this ean alot to me. i travel half way around the worl and am here in my final year, yet, am not doing well in my stadies. i dont have diffeculties learning, accually am quite smart and i love what am studing (marketing)but whats the point i dont accuallly sit down and study. i fully support my familly, and they cant wait for me to graduate and go back home.. and that master pice, i just broke up with ma girl, we,ve lived together for nearly 2 years. she has gone back to her country, taking my heart with her. i know that i might sound confused, indeed i am. am living in foriegn country totaly messed up. even though i know that the key to the door to get out of this confusion is to quite smoking weed, i dont seem able to quite. i dont know what to do, and am alone. i mean really alone.. talking to family about it is not an option. can some one help?
Leo,
going through the same things…i’ve been trying to quit for 2 weeks now. (mainly b/c i’m going to have a to take a drug test for a job) but i also want to try to quit for good. Marijuana takes over your life, it changes who you are and who you want to be. I’ve decided to make this sunday my quit day, so I have some weed on me and a couple days left, then the hard times begin. Hopefully i can get through it with the support of friends and this site. I am looking forward to this immense challenge in my life, it will probably be the hardest thing i’ll ever have to do. Also, i have already quit smoking cigarettes while i was in highschool, i’m not sure why, but that wasn’t nearly as hard for me to quit as marijuana is. maybe it’s because i wasnt doing it for quite as long, or maybe i just like the effects of weed much more. At the same time i’m also trying to quit doing dip (which i’ve been addicted to for about 4 years now, i haven’t had a dip in about a month, still get cravings but can usually ignore them), i’ve quit soda just for my physical health as smoking so much pot as caused me to be physically out of shape and since while i do smoke pot i am too lazy to go to the gym, i decided i needed to find another way to lose some weight. I haven’t had soda in over two months with the exception of one special occasion. So now that i am about to add marijuana to the list of things to quit, this is going to be quite difficult for me. Hopefully i can get through it. If i need to relapse, hopefully i can relapse on one of the other two things, since i really can’t afford to relapse on marijuana after this weekend.