Posted by admin on March 23, 2008
When I woke up today, I felt great. After quitting marijuana for 6 days, my morning energy and mindset is improving. My mind is much clearer than a week ago! I used to smoke weed primarily at night, and it is almost a guarantee that I would fall asleep stoned or burnt out…..That seems to carry over into a mediocre sleep and a tough wakeup in the morning. My marijuana hangovers rob me of energy and a positive attitude in the morning. Sometimes my eyes looked stony, even if it had been hours.
When I take in a full breath, the top of my lungs hurt a little bit, I don’t know if that is from quitting pot, being more aware of my body, or from the exercise I have been doing in the past couple of days. Maybe they are being cleaned out.
Starting a couple of days ago, I was experiencing significant anxiety and nervousness…This hasn’t happened to me before when trying to end my marijuana addiction. I have had a very stressed out 2 weeks, so I think the marijuana withdrawal played a small role in this overall mental state.
I haven’t had any major cravings yet. In my case, those don’t start for a little while. I have stayed away from the pubs and thus the party. It is a lot easier to quit when you aren’t surrounded by it.
Posted by admin on March 22, 2008
It’s been a weird couple of days. I have had all sorts of nervous energy and anxiety…I don’t want to call them panic attacks, but rather feelings of intense dread for no reason. Sometimes my mind races. It kind of feels like a ball of energy heating up at my center and moving up the top of my body. I think this nervous energy is the cause of my insomnia as well.
I notice that I have been ‘holding’ my breath a lot and have been tense or fidgety for no reason. I have been doing some of the stress relaxation techniques and deep breathing drills which are actually working ! I haven’t experienced the marijuana withdrawal anxiety before to this severity. Usually it was only mental, but the physical withdrawal symptoms from cannabis are discomforting. I need to bleed off more stress during this beginning transition phase. With the right stress management program, the stress and anxiety from marijuana withdrawal can be minimized.
Quitting Marijuana can cause anxiety in some people, but I don’t know how long it is supposed to last, and what to expect. Needless to say, the last couple of days have NOT been fun. I got about 6 hours of solid sleep. Normally I wake up a lot during the night, but this was a nice uninterrupted rest.
Only one dream of note so far, all I remember is being hit in the liver by something, then someone I knew (don’t know who) hitting me in the same spot.
Posted by admin on March 21, 2008
Today was a pretty good day. When I was attempting to quit smoking weed last time, I was spending a fair bit of my ‘new’ extra time at the pub, which lead to a lot of relapses. I haven’t been drinking in the last couple of weeks - and have had little to drink in 2 months. This feels really good, and waking up in the morning is way easier when you don’t go to sleep with a couple of beers in you.
Weed has always made me sleep well, so the last couple of days have seen little sleep. I got up around 3 pm yesterday, and had a slight nap between 4-6 AM, and just powered through the day. So I have been up for 30 hours with a 2 hour nap in between. I am definitely tired, and should sleep well tonight. I haven’t had any of the crazy dreams yet. I will be sure to let you know about them.
I am taking a lot of vitamin C and drinking lots of water to keep my immune system up. I haven’t been very hungry in the last couple days either. I have been eating a better diet than I normally do though. It will be a busy Easter weekend and I am sure I will have an appetite when I sit down for Easter dinner!
I have been online and reading a lot about psychology, addiction, and all that fun stuff - I am kind of able analyze my own actions and learn from them. This takes a lot of introspection. My mind is starting to clear and I have pretty good energy when considering my lack of appetite and crazy sleeping schedule.
Posted by admin on March 19, 2008
I just read an article over at Scientific American regarding cigarette smokers called “Smoking Can’t Buy Happiness“. It helped to clarify that the reason I smoke marijuana is for instant pleasure. All of this short term pleasure, and I supposed it is the “pleasure” I am addicted to, ultimately makes me unhappy in the long run.
I also need to really define happiness on my own terms, so that I can live towards that goal, rather than just trying to quit marijuana. So there ya go…..lots of empty pleasure makes me unhappy. Does anyone else out there experience the same?
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