Day 1, Again – How do I stop smoking weed?

by admin on April 14, 2008 · 58 comments

in Daily Journal, Marijuana Addiction

<h1>How Do I stop smoking weed?</h1>

I slipped up again and smoked last night.   This was the first relapse in a long time —-more than 3 weeks.  Over the last week I had been drinking more than I normally do – well more than normal when I was smoking pot multiple times per day.     I ended up having about 5 beers last night, then smoking a bowl.

I knew I didn’t *want* to smoke weed, but I decided to follow everyone out.  I knew I didn’t want to smoke, but I joined the circle.  I knew I didn’t want to smoke weed, but I lit up and took a puff, and held that smoke down for what felt like an eternity.   The act of smoking was so a release, almost like peeing after holding it too long.    For a few brief moments, I enjoyed myself.

Reality hit pretty hard, I had just broken a great sober streak, and now I felt like shit.   I was stoned, paranoid, and depressed, so I went home and sat alone and stared at the wall for about an hour.   When I tried to stop smoking weed in the past, every time  I slipped up, I felt like it was the end of the world, sunk into a depression, and got ridiculously stoned for weeks.   When I hit rock bottom, I would try to quit again.

I am always learning and learned a lot from my previous attempts to kick the habit.  Somewhere in my mind, at some point, last night, I made a decision to smoke pot.   I am still thinking heavily on this to see if I can find the exact point, so that I can identify and avoid it in the future.   Did I get drunk to have an excuse to smoke, did I drink because I couldn’t smoke.   Did I go out with friends, with the knowledge that weed would be around, and I might stumble upon it?    I am still on the bandwagon, and my resolve has not changed.   Last night may have made it even stronger.  The guilt I felt from smoking completely ruined the experience, and I don’t want to go through all the negative feelings I get when I smoke weed.

How do I quit smoking weed?    One step at a time.   I had some clarity last night (amazing despite the beer and weed), it made me realize that this is a major process to undertake - and will take time.   I can’t just quit smoking weed, I have to change my entire lifestyle to be substance free if I really want to succeed.

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1 TheFishINsideUs October 17, 2008 at 7:49 am

It is somehow comforting to read so many paragraphs that look like I could have typed them. Smoking every day for years simply isn’t good for you, period. It’s cost me socially, financially, and most of all i’m just BORED. Ive tried to quit with every bag ive bought in the past few months “oh this will be the last, i’ll smoke it all then it’ll be GONE”

not so easy when all your best friends smoke/sell and it’s a phone call away :)

we’ll see what happens. i believe it is an addictive drug, but i also believe you have to have the willpower inside you.

like my coworker always says when we’re not getting anything done, just talking…

dont TALK about it, BE about it. get off your ass and quit.

right now im sitting here with no pot, but an extreme desire to smoke that “last time” before i quit for good. only way to do this would be to scrape my bowl of its resin and smoke that horrible black nasty smoke that gets you a slight buzz…still debating…

but damn i need to quit.

thanks for posting, all. i enjoy reading that there are others like me, and some who arent like me that have different views and ways of quitting.

2 CraigyBurn November 3, 2008 at 3:05 am

38joe Says:

“what the hell are you people thinking. marijuana is not addictive. and for you pussies whining that, ohh.. I’m addicted, thats utter bullshit. Just quit buying the shit. Ive smoked for 12 years now and dont have any problems if i should run out. its all in your head. if you think you cant quit than you dont have the mindpower to. the plant has a hold of you”

Are you serious with this statement? You say “just stop buying the shit”..and “its all in your head”.

Well guess what, you are a junkie yourself..you’ve been smoking weed for 12 years!!!!! you are a junkie, YOU need to come to terms with the things you deny are true my friend..otherwise..enjoy the next 12 years of addiction!!!!

3 Cat November 6, 2008 at 7:07 pm

This guy’s obviously never gone without it for much length of time and what’s he doing here anyway?

I know for a fact it is addictive. I always thought it was psychological but there is a definite period of physical discomfort that occurs whenever I decide to quit.

It kind of makes sense. Your brain chemistry is always turned on in the pleasure/reward center with weed and then suddenly it is not. So there is going to be some discomfort there.

Maybe it is not addictive to the casual user, but to people who are addicted and want out of the weed trap, it’s addictive!!!

Even if mostly psychological, it’s still a painful process. Doesn’t make it any less stressful.

4 miles November 16, 2008 at 8:00 am

hey, strengthofchange,

your I really felt you there!!

quote:

” …i quit a million times before i quit for good. let’s hope this time it’s for good. every time you relapse, you do sink a little lower. rock bottom keeps going down and down until it’s really a rock bottom for you. and then you’ll quit. and then when you look back on that – the fear of having to start over with your quit journey – that’s what keeps me going now. i don’t have it in me to face another day 1. i’ve been smoking daily for 10 years. i’m almost 31. i can’t do another day 1. it would break my heart. and i don’t want to feel that way. just thinking about how this struggle has consumed me for so long….i won’t do it anymore. i won’t obsess about weed anymore.. whatever shred of my spirit remains now needs me to move on.”

5 Steve November 25, 2008 at 7:14 am

Hi, I’ve been smoking pot since I was 12 and I’m now 43. I have periodically taken breaks (4-6 weeks) but have always gone back. Over the past few years I have been a daily user, starting mid afternoon, and usually smoke about a joint a day. The problem for me is that I’m a somewhat successful musician and composer and have integrated getting high with my daily creative process. When I force myself to go on sabbatical periodically I tend to be FAR less productive. I tend to do the minimum amount of work and find myself in a very uncreative state – wanting to just watch TV all day and night. Intellectually I argue with myself about the rationale of that thinking: I shouldn’t need pot to be creative and productive. So my fear now is, as always, if I stop smoking pot for good I may lose that creative edge and possibly – my livelihood. Yikes.

6 Adisa December 8, 2008 at 5:15 pm

Admin,

I have quit smoking for almost 5 months now, and I do not intend to smoke again.

The biggest factor in quitting marijuana was changing my circle of friends. A major reason for me being weed-dependent was beng surrounded by it, and the habit grew worse for me if I was dating a user.

Eventually I realized that I would ALWAYS be a weed addict, and that if I wanted to quit smoking and be more productive in my life, I could never associate with my former circle of potheads.

Another catalyst for kicking the habit was a desire to finally deal with my years long depression. I now know that by trying to run from my issues, I was only prolonging the day that they would catch up to me.

Good luck keeping sober. I hope you can keep it up. My biggest realization from quitting weed was realizing how I hadn’t really lived until now.

7 JustMike December 24, 2008 at 4:55 pm

I have been a user for almost 35 years, with some gaps. For the past almost ten tears I have been a heavy user and this foolishness has destroyed cost me my marriage and generaly ruined my life. My path was one of depression which I foolishly treated with the drug (pot) which led to debt and divorce.
It took a more or less complete breakdown to make me realize where the root of my problem was. In the past two and a half weeks I have smoked three times and each time the experience was most definatly not one of being high. Each time it was a very bad trip the last time the experience was so bad I’m sure I’ll never smoke again. Beleive me over the decades I have tried to quit many times always knowing in the back of my head that I would relapse.
What is different this time is this is just the first step in transforming my life. I have also been an abuser of sugar, junk food and a moderate drinker. Now I am completely free of all that. I used to be a mindless consumer addicted to debt. Now I’m learning to be a producer and am developing ways to make a positive contribution to society. I have a good doctor who is helping me deal with the physical affects of my various “addictions”. I also have two teenage children who need me to be a different person. Who need an example that it is possible to transform your life.
So in closing Merry Christmas to everyone out there, stay strong and don’t give up! I’ll check back in and let you know how I’m progressing.

8 Jesusfreak January 23, 2010 at 12:08 pm

Been clean for 5 days now, Im going through all the withdrawl symptoms, but Im keeping faith that’ll ill soon be completely free of these chains and bondage. I truly laugh at those who scorns us addicted to weed, they’re obviously nim-wits and haven’t researched the syndrome. Its now a scientific fact that the substense is addictive, Period. A lil advice for those trying to quit: take up the bible, read it a lil hear and there, its really helping me, My conscience is telling me im reading truth, i can feel that, and i need some Truth in my life, for i feel like Ive been living a lie, Like someone stole something from me during my High times. Well someone did im learning, The devil stole my right to be free. I hate this vice, But god willing, Im going to succeed in my full Recovery. I have faith. Ive tried so many times to quit before, it always eats at me to quit, cause i know its wrong. But reading what others write, and reading Gods word, its Key to recovery. God is faithful and good. Stay true to yourself and your family, drugs affect EVERYONE around you, it’d be selfish to not think that. Writing this i hope will help somebody out there, lotta stoned/lost fish in the sea. I dont know how i’d be stopping w/o the help of the Bible, dont get religious, get God. Hallelujah

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