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How Do I quit smoking weed?
I slipped up again and smoked last night. This was the first relapse in a long time —-more than 3 weeks. Over the last week I had been drinking more than I normally do - well more than normal when I was smoking pot multiple times per day. I ended up having about 5 beers last night, then smoking a bowl.
I knew I didn’t *want* to smoke weed, but I decided to follow everyone out. I knew I didn’t want to smoke, but I joined the circle. I knew I didn’t want to smoke weed, but I lit up and took a puff, and held that smoke down for what felt like an eternity. The act of smoking was so a release, almost like peeing after holding it too long. For a few brief moments, I enjoyed myself.
Reality hit pretty hard, I had just broken a great sober streak, and now I felt like shit. I was stoned, paranoid, and depressed, so I went home and sat alone and stared at the wall for about an hour. When I tried to stop smoking weed in the past, every time I slipped up, I felt like it was the end of the world, sunk into a depression, and got ridiculously stoned for weeks. When I hit rock bottom, I would try to quit again.
I am always learning and learned a lot from my previous attempts to kick the habit. Somewhere in my mind, at some point, last night, I made a decision to smoke pot. I am still thinking heavily on this to see if I can find the exact point, so that I can identify and avoid it in the future. Did I get drunk to have an excuse to smoke, did I drink because I couldn’t smoke. Did I go out with friends, with the knowledge that weed would be around, and I might stumble upon it? I am still on the bandwagon, and my resolve has not changed. Last night may have made it even stronger. The guilt I felt from smoking completely ruined the experience, and I don’t want to go through all the negative feelings I get when I smoke weed.
How do I quit smoking weed? One step at a time. I had some clarity last night (amazing despite the beer and weed), it made me realize that this is a major process to undertake - and will take time. I can’t just quit smoking weed, I have to change my entire lifestyle to be substance free if I really want to succeed.
keep trying, admin. i quit a million times before i quit for good. let’s hope this time it’s for good. every time you relapse, you do sink a little lower. rock bottom keeps going down and down until it’s really a rock bottom for you. and then you’ll quit. and then when you look back on that - the fear of having to start over with your quit journey - that’s what keeps me going now. i don’t have it in me to face another day 1. i’ve been smoking daily for 10 years. i’m almost 31. i can’t do another day 1. it would break my heart. and i don’t want to feel that way. just thinking about how this struggle has consumed me for so long….i won’t do it anymore. i won’t obsess about weed anymore.. whatever shred of my spirit remains now needs me to move on.
April 14th, 2008 at 5:33 pmSorry dude…I’ve been drinking a lot too lately and trust me, if someone offered me weed while i was drunk i would have smoked it..the only thing helping me out right now is i don’t have many friends and the ones i do have keep calling me asking if i “need some” despite the fact i told them i was quitting…anyway all i’m saying is i’m very weak right now and would give into temptation in a heartbeat…hate to be the spoiler, but you are probably right about the lifestyle change..sucks. besides not smoking, i haven’t changed a damn thing either, besides drinking way more than usual. later, b
April 15th, 2008 at 3:40 amThis is not a easy task and have found myself to quit numerous times and allways back to smoking. When I do this i get a feeling of guilt and that i failed myself. One of the main reasons that quitting weed is so difficult to quit is the fact that nowadays whether or not u want to believe it or not weed is being laced with other more addictive drugs on the market. This is been said for awhile and people don’t want to believe it. As we speak im on three days and feel somewhat better but my mind and eyes feel the pain. I get mad at random times and wonder why did i ever smoke this stuff it’s no good. I got confidence im myself now i know i can do it but its the social aspect that i got to control.
Im done no more its no good and other people i hope realize this and it only clouds your mind and it is not good period.
April 15th, 2008 at 6:00 amAll these posts feel like reading my own thoughts. So many times I’ve tried to quit. I do believe it can be done though!
April 16th, 2008 at 2:17 amGood luck to us all.
Everything said and what we all are going through is a bout full of regret and even though at times when we relapse and it goes for days or weeks before we realise to stop again, is hurtful to the full potential we can be if we weren’t on it. This is my third relapse and I’m just deciding to quit again. It basically has to stop because it mucks up too much that is important in your life. Admin I know how it feels, I hit six weeks without it but as you said, drank much more to substitute the boredom of being home and not on it. I guess we all need to inspire each other and ourselves to see the benefits of not smoking and realise this condition - that is sobriety. Just curious though, have any of you had any hot flushes to the face for weeks when quitting? That was one reason I relapsed cause it got too embarrassing when you conversed with someone and your face goes beat red on occassion. Best of luck all.
April 16th, 2008 at 4:34 amI highly doubt drug dealers are putting other drugs into commerical cannabis, this may just be an excuse or justification of your physologocial addiction to the drug. Now it certainly is possible, but please show me a dealer that is going to put a higher priced drug on a lower priced drug just so you come back and but some more of this lower priced drug. Over the last 5 years I’ve smoked only cannabis that was touched by very few hands (1-2 AT MOST) and I certainly know the bud I was consuming WAS NOT LACED, yet I still had the phsycological addiction. Now for me it was to cover pain from lost love, or lack of love and affection throughout my childhood and many other regrets of my life. You need to really examine yourself to understand WHY you actually abuse cannabis - if you do.
Just my 2 cents
April 16th, 2008 at 7:22 pmI wanna thanks for admin to put up this good site for us all,u know its really good to have someone understand what we have to face while we quitting.
My name is Kuen and Im from hongkong,i have been a heavily skunk smoker for almost 3 years,and today is my day 11 of sober time,Im so stressed now and want to call my dealer so bad,my mind full of imagination of rolling a joint and smoke a big bong,sigh……
April 16th, 2008 at 8:17 pmI agree with bucking faked, I find quitting weed terribly hard, never have succeeded for longer than 2 months (and have smoked for 10 years, on a daily and frequent basis for the last 7) and I’ve grown my own, totally organic weed… in my opinion the problem lies in the addiction itself, not the possible substances the weed might be laced with, more so considering weed is one of the drugs less likely to be laced with anything.
April 17th, 2008 at 6:08 amIn my experience a change of habits is essential, living exactly the same way is hard not to fall back into weed abusing…
Hey Admin,
Never mind the relapse, and I dont think you should start at day 1 again. I have been off for I think just over 6 weeks. I slipped on night a couple of weeks ago, but that was it. It taught me that my sleep is easily affected again, even just after one joint.
So, just get back on the train. At present, you are currently a dope smoker who has quit. Only time and a bit of repatterning your lifestyle will make you a real non-smoker.
April 19th, 2008 at 2:55 amHi Admin,
Before I write my testimomial here, I just want to say this site is absolutley amazing. I am currently on Day 3 of what I expect will lead to me Never smoking Weed again.
Reading yours and the other testimonials on here is exactly what I needed to convince my self I need to, I can , and I will QUIT. I have gone on here and spent much of the last 3 days finding and reading what ever I can find on hear. Every story and comment is helpful. Even those that think it is not addicting, or that it should be easily controlled, all that stuff helps and to some degree I think everyone on here is right on point, even when it’s the exact opposite of someone elses point, but that’s really how crazy this drug is.
Obviuosly, It looks as though you had a relapse right when I found this site. I hope to god that you will continue to write on here weather your sober or not cause I really need to hear and read knew material as much as I can. Hope to see some knew entries now that it is 4:21.
I started smoking weed reguarly about 4 years ago after I got out of a LTR. I was only a recreational smoker before that and would smoke only once every 3 or 4 months.
The regular habit slowly picked up over the four years, I eventually started taking nothing but mole rips (bong loads mixed with tabacco) so I am trying to quit a nicatine habit simoultaniously (sp?).
I’ve basically just been sitting here rocking back and forth trying to do something with my nervous energy all weekend, It really sucks trying to quit knowing your boys are out there celebrating 420. But this weekend is something that I NEVER want to have to do again. Your entries have helped me understand that I and only I can beat this. It is a test of wills versus yourself. I am very affraid to go against myself. I have been called the most competitive person in the world by some of the most competitive people I have ever met. I am not sure what is going to happen to me over the next 90 days as the longest I have gone w/o weed or tabacco is about 5 days over that 4 year span. Not sure what’s gonna happen but I will die from withdrawl before I touch that shit again. It has allowed myself to take everything I had (friends,family, money, jobs, girls, and prob. not too far off from losing a place to live) away from myself.
Here’s a strange and final request. I need people to doubt the fact I can quit, People doubting me will give me more restraint, in a weird way verbal abuse, and doubt from people gives me what I need to achieve my GOAL of quitting forever. If you are not comfortable with this I understand, but If you could post, how you doubt me, or anyone could give up cold turkey after basically 4 straight years of counting to ten while you hold it in, then PLEASE, PLEASE post that you doubt I could do it.
I love everyone of you, and will be indebted to anyone who has contributed anything to this site for the rest of my life becasue this is what got my life back together on April 18th 2008
April 21st, 2008 at 11:00 amGood luck to you Can’t spell Marijuana w/o Arjuna Says…
This is not really doubting that you can do it, just be aware that for some of us (as you would have read) - it takes many many tries to actually do it (I have not done it, even though I go through the same thought patterns as the ones you have described).
April 21st, 2008 at 10:41 pmCheers either way and good luck!
Keep it up everyone !
A message to Can’t spell Marijuana w/o Arjuna. It will be hard to quit nicotine as well as dope. I stopped smoking nicotine a few years ago. I am not advertising it, but i did a course via a group call Smokenders. It costs money, but i have to say it is one of the best things i did in my life (next to having a couple of kids)
One of the big things they taught was that you have to repattern. Those times when you are sitting around rocking, feeling like a smoke, well try and use that nervous energy to do something else, do the dishes, go for a walk, clean something in the house you have never cleaned before. The feeling will go away, when it comes back, do something else. Drink plenty of water, start to excersise, start writing a list of all the great things about you, all the reasons why you want to quit, all the things you want to achive, and add to these lists daily.
Warm mild and honey at night can help with sleep if thats a problem, and try the 20 minute relaxation technique that is linked above. I found that one a big help.
STAY AWAY from situations, friends, locations where you will be tempted ! STAY AWAY. What you are doing is difficult, why make it harder on yourself ? Once you are a non smoker, then you can handle it, but dont tempt fate. If you relapse you may feel like you failed, you start up again in a circle.
I have said this here before, that I smoked for 30 years, and I stopped around 7 weeks ago now. I still have some sleep troubles, but that is very slowly diminishing. Stopping dope is also one of the best things I have done in my life.
Good luck and hang in there. When you feel tempted, think about the pain you are going thru now, and do you want to do it all again when you try to stop another time in the future. Make this the last time you have to endure these withdrawls.
April 22nd, 2008 at 3:37 amanon,
I had the sweats for a few weeks when I first stopped. I didnt realise it was withhdrawl symptom. I kept asking my mates at work if they were also hot ? lol
For me, it went away after about 3 weeks, i dont get them any more. Drink plenty of water to help flush your system, stay away from booze for the moment, and limit your caffine, excersise.
Do a google search on “quitting cannabis insomnia” There is heaps of information on what you may expect. It helped me to know what was happening was normal, and that the symptoms will go away.
April 22nd, 2008 at 3:49 amTani and Trevor,
Thank you for your responses and your advice. I have tried to quit before, and obviously was unsuccessful. I only smoke the two (pot and tabacco) together. So I’m pretty sure if I relapse on one of them the other will be coming with it, their a team.
My whole life I always heard about the munchies and how the pot smoking will ultimately lead to obecity (sp?) which is another health risk. But , I have never been one to have pot make me eat alot. Does anyone know is this because of the tabacco, that I don’t get hungary? I’m 6′5″ 180 lbs the exact same weight I was when I got out of college 7 years ago. Does anyone else not get the muchies when they smoke?
It seems like some of my ablitly to comsume food came back a little yesterday as I was able to eat two full meals with no problem in one day when I probably had been only eating 1 or 1.5 a day for the last two years or so.
Thanks for the advice on the nervous energy Trevor, i think I’ll go get some stuff done around the house.
April 22nd, 2008 at 11:58 amso admin, any updates since the mis-hap? hopefully you’re back on the waggon and on day 9. We miss you !
April 23rd, 2008 at 1:05 pmnot hearing from admin makes me suspicious that he is on a smoking binge.
April 23rd, 2008 at 3:47 pmi’m on day 31.
it’s hard as shit. can’t sleep. irritable. cravings. totally sucks.
but this is recovery.
weed is the problem, not the solution.
i’m feeling this way because i smoked weed for so long. going back to smoking is just going to make it all more painful. might as well keep going so i don’t have to do this again!
detox sucks!!!!!!
sorry to hear of your struggles strengthtochange. I’m done with day 23 and im glad to say my sleep is normal and my cravings have been curbed, I guess I’ve seen the light if you will. I give all the thanks and praise to My Lord Jesus Christ and the power of the holy spirit. Philipans 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Though I still do have this thing in the back of my head telling me its not over, I rebuke those thoughts with the Words of the LORD - however I still think I will smoke again someday, but NEVER AGAIN will I be in bondage or brough captive to the level I was which was Serving WEED. I serve Jesus Christ now to the fullest and not the things of this world. For if one loves the world or the things of this world the love of the Father is not in him. So says God’s WORD.
I took a practice piss test today and PASSED!!!! I’m so Happy about that! Its like God had me quit JUST IN TIME, I have to take a piss test tomorrow for a Job I was BLESSED with.
PEACE AND GOOD LUCK KEEP IT GOING!!!
April 23rd, 2008 at 9:47 pmAdmin -
April 26th, 2008 at 4:14 pmif you are having a relapse, I don’t think you should run and hide from this blog. Face us, we support each other and you too - if you blog about your feelings at a time like this (when in relapse) perhaps you can read over it later and it will help. It may help others too. I know when I relapse it almost feels like you have to mentally again from step one - deciding that weed is a problem and that you need to quit. I also always hate myself more and feel like a failure at these times.
Share your feelings and let us support you.
Good luck.
Hey Admin ?
Whats happening ? The site is loosing it steam, and there are a few people that have used this as their catalyst to stop smoking.
For whats its worth to anyone that may still be reading, I stopped 7 weeks ago after 30 years of smoking! Sleep is still the only problem I have, but i have read on the net that that can sometimes take a few months to right itself. I really envy those that can get back into a normal sleep pattern after only a few weeks.
Bye for now !
April 28th, 2008 at 4:04 amme too, Trevor - my sleep is also still bad and i’m at 35 days. i’m exercising and taking vitamins i think it improves by about an extra 15 minutes a night. i have to keep trying. i can’t wait to get a full night’s sleep again. i usually fall asleep for a few hours and then toss and turn for the rest of the night.
weed is the problem, not the solution. sleep will come back, i know it will. it’s just taking me a lot longer than others who are sleeping fine after a week or so.
thanks!
April 28th, 2008 at 6:48 amGood on you guys, you are both doing great!!
April 28th, 2008 at 11:52 amI think admin will be back, it just took a little while last time.
Hey strengthtochange,
I am going back on to the routine I was using at about 5 weeks in. A shower before bed, then a warm milk and honey. Go to bed at the same time, even weekends if you can. I sort of got off that routine a bit and went from 4 hours sleep back to only a couple. I have also not not been excercising enough and I find that any alcohol stuffs up the sleep as well.
Fortunatley the weather is getting a little cooler in Sydney overnight, so that makes sleeping a little easier when you are snug in bed.
Anyway, 10pm and nearly my bed time ! lol
Bye for now !
ps It seems that the pro-dope lot have left this site alone for a while !
April 29th, 2008 at 3:58 amI’m still PRO dope, but its just not for me… I’m all about utilizing hemp and marijuana to the fullest. I.e. Food Fiber Oil Medicine and FUEL. People NEED this stuff to LIVE, we should not force those in need to use witchcraft drugs called pharmaceuticals. In fact some that require these pharmies to live cannot hold them down because of what they do to the insides of your stomache, liver, etc. but with cannabis they are able to overcome the nausia and LIVE. I think its a GREAT plant, when needed, and in moderation - not to be use like water(every day all day) as most of us addicts have.
did you know that Ford’s first car was made from hemp?? And it ran off of hemp oil…. Its the rulers of darkness of this age that have put us in bondage to fossil fuels, it runs the worlds money market. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4rgDyEO_8cI
Hopefully gas will be 10bucks a gallon soon FORCING car manufactures to get back in he game. Back in 1996 I remember GM had electric cars you could plug in at schools, mcdonalds, and costco’s all over the place. But suddenly the government RECALLED all these cars, even if you owed nothing on the vehicle the government TOOK THEM AWAY. How fucked up is that? VERY CORRUPT and self serving to line their pockets. Did you know oil companies made 72billion dollars last year on oil? so why WOULD they want us off oil? THEY DONT. They want us in bondage, and to be their slaves. 95% Poor 5% Rich, no middle class = the goal. Also why is it that 99% of congress are millionaires, that just doesn’t seem right.
I’m voting RON PAUL, even if mccain doesn’t die from cancer and defaulting the Republican nomination to Ron. www.ronpaul2008.com - only hope for America, besides Jesus.
April 29th, 2008 at 7:22 amanother cool video on a car made to run on hemp oil (better than deisel) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S9Am3yUDt3M&feature=related
Supression I tell ya, supression. How can you have a BAN on nature? It’s blasphemus
April 29th, 2008 at 7:25 amHey folks-
Just wanted to say kudos to all of you for the work you’re doing and what you’re going through. I quit smoking ten years ago and it feels great. Took me a bunch of tries, but I finally pulled it off and now I can hardly believe that ten years have passed. For those of you who feel alone in your efforts, know that there’s a lot of us that have come out the other side and you have all our support!
April 29th, 2008 at 10:32 amDude!
You need to take this one step at a time. First, make you goal to never buy weed. Ever. If you run into while with your friends, its not the end of the world. If your goal is to never smoke at all, then it is too easy to get depressed and you fall back into your old habits.
Start of with refusing to ever buy it. Once you are comfortable with that and you have a grip on your life, then move on to completely stopping. Quitting cold turkey is obviously too much for you, and you need a different method. This is how I quit, and it works very well.
April 29th, 2008 at 11:25 pmif anyone is interested in more success stories while you are struggling: www.uncommonforum.com. click on addictions.
April 30th, 2008 at 6:54 amThat looks like a great forum. Thank-you very much.
April 30th, 2008 at 12:52 pmI haven’t been on here for awhile, but glad to report that I have been 33 days without smoking any weed. I’m not really having the cravings so much, but have had a terrible time dealing with depression and anxiety.
I would like to say that marijuana is clearly not the problem, but it only makes things worse. Since I have quit smoking, there are opportunities to explore the real reasons for my neurosis, instead of numbing myself or being always in an altered state of mind- high. There was nothing I loved more than smoking weed, and yet it kept me small-minded. It was a crutch for me, and I smoked it regularly for most of 30 years.
Mary-Jane was my best friend, but now at almost 50yrs. of age, I have let her go, and decided to grow up. So, that is what I regret- the stunted growth, emotionally, psychologically, mentally.
There are many paths/programs/therapies that one can take for spiritual and emotional growth. The important thing is to find one that can be a tool in moving on. There is this sight of course, which has been helpful to me. There is MA-online, or even land meetings. I have used the online avenue at times when I was desperate for someone to hear me, and have found help there also. I have found a therapist to talk with and unload some of the buried emotions. I have journaled. I have also been working through a workbook called “Depressed & Anxious” by Thomas Marra.
My point is this: I couldn’t just quit marijuana without addressing the underlying problems and pain that brought me to self-medicate in the first place. Sometimes AA meetings work for some people, or even church involvement. I have had to find other ways for myself.
If you are wanting to quit, trying to quit, I would say- Find support somewhere
April 30th, 2008 at 2:44 pmAnd, find your own path.
I’m still searching, but finally do feel hopeful that I can find a way to live that will work better for me than being a stoner.
Rob- You inspire me so much! I have not had my addiction nearly to the length of yours and am only 29. But I just can’t tell you how much it inspires me to continue on the path of quitting (14 days now, after basically 4 staight years) hearing you say you’ve decided to grow up. I feel the exact same way. It was time for me to grow up, and to hear that you can do it at 50 inspires me even more. I know people that are 60/65/70/75 that have not “grown up” and I was begining to think I was on my last stand against this addiction.
Thank you for your blog, It helps to hear about your pain and that it is hard to quit, but to hear that you are strong enough to do it at this point in your life after having an addiction for this long is really inspiring.
Today is two weeks for me. I really never thought I would make it this far. I had a poker game last night and as always blunts are passed around the room like a Brady-Moss touchdown reception. I was able to control myself once again and fight any urge I had to take a rip. WOW I never thought I would turn down free weed. I check up on this site at least 3-4 times a day and each time it helps me get through another couple of hours.
I feel like my sleep is slowly increasing (about 5 mins per night) I still can not recall any dreams all though I know I am starting to have them cause now I can just remember dreaming right when I wake up and then get frustrated cause I have no idea what they were about.
Please anyone who checks this site continue to blog, YOUR blog helps, it helps others and will inspire others to write and there for will give you something to read and aspire to.
Since i have more time on my hands with no weed, I picked up a knew hobby of reading (imagine that) to help pass some time. I read a great book on addiction, “A beautiful boy” and while the subjects main addiction is meth it really has helped me learn about my addiction and the addiction of others and that every addiction is different yet the same in many ways. Plus it is really a great father/son story for any of you that have kids or are really close w/ your father.
Thanks again everyone/rob for your story/blogs You all lift me up and won’t let me crash when I think about crashing!
May 2nd, 2008 at 3:10 amBrother
May 9th, 2008 at 4:24 amI’m 42 been smoking since 11 WASTED many yrs with that cult recovery rap-even was a conselor and got an associates in that.Let me tell you that I now see clearly that whole recovery your a piece of crap and beating yourself up.Stop that you people are torturing yourselves with that crap.So here’s STEP ONE you want to smoke SMOKE you don’t DON’T.I don’t drink anymore cause it caused me a lot of problems and got old.I feel bad that you make a simple decision into a struggle of good and evil or whatever.Like they say Keep it simple-your tired of weed and the effects don’t smoke.
This is a cool blog and very unique.I enjoyed it Keep up the great work on the Blog as far as smoking do whats best for you.
Some people “me” need to smoke weed because I like it if I didn’t like it I wouldn’t do it-why beat yourself up for that.I don’t see people criticizing fishing,jerking off or whatever a person likes to do.
This site is great. Day 1 for me.
May 13th, 2008 at 12:43 pmStan,
Good for you for wanting to quit. This site is awesome isn’t it. It helps so much to hear about others struggles. Or just what other paople think, pro-weed or anti-weed. Day 25 for me. I’m loving have my head out of the clouds for once, I’m gaining confidence in myself in every aspect of my life. After the first 10 days it slowly, slowly gets a little bit easier each day.
The first few days i quit seemed like they were 100 hours long. Now the days are starting to zip by again. We will only control you if you let it.
Big ups to everyone who has control over this drug, on it it or off it. What ever it takes for you. And Major Big ups to anyone trying to get control over it.
May 13th, 2008 at 7:36 pmCompletely addicted ,Daily use since i was young teenager ~ 20 years.
May 15th, 2008 at 12:19 amThe desire to stop smoking it now for at least 5 years. around the time i need to score more i think i should just stop instead of getting another bag. NEVER happened!
i always get another bag.\
my entire life is organized so i can smoke whenever i want morning noon night.
And i do.
in 20 years i dont think i been sober more than 48 hours.
i dont remember ever going 48 hours without it
happy i found this blog
gl 2 you all.
I really enjoy this site, i am sure if i just come here everyday, read a few blogs, write a few, and have plenty of motivation and self conrol that it will be enough to help me quit smoking marijuana.
May 29th, 2008 at 8:55 amTrevor,
You are the man, for wanting to quit. I am on 46 days going on 47. This is by far the hardest thing i have ever done in my life. I check this site every day and if you ever want support or somone to talk to about anything write something and I will write back. I heal from hearing others stories and if that means I need to give stories to get stories I would be more than happy.
Tell me a story of yours and I will tell you one of mine. I think talkng about struggle is the best because it is nice to hear that somone else is struggling with something the way you are, probably the reason we all started smoking weed, it’s ironic that I/we need the same thing to help us quit.
Miserey loves company!!!!!
God Bless All,
Arjuna
May 31st, 2008 at 9:59 pmi love weed but i think i have to quit…thanks for your website it is inspirational. Does anyone have any advice if your partner smokes? I don’t care if he quits or not. But its like he doesnt want me to, makes it harder
June 2nd, 2008 at 6:24 pmwhat the hell are you people thinking. marijuana is not addictive. and for you pussies whining that, ohh.. I’m addicted, thats utter bullshit. Just quit buying the shit. Ive smoked for 12 years now and dont have any problems if i should run out. its all in your head. if you think you cant quit than you dont have the mindpower to. the plant has a hold of you
June 5th, 2008 at 9:08 amhence addictive. you fucking moron.
June 6th, 2008 at 11:30 pmHi Guys
Just came out of detox yesterday and let me tell you that after being educated by professionals all who say marijuana is NOT addictive or NOT damaging are wrong.
After 10 years of smoking every day I found myself in detox clinic knowing that I could not get any. I had to be sedated for two days as I could not stop the shakes, sweating and anxiety. I looked at myself with shock to see that I trull was a drug addict.
Now being 8 days clean I am starting to function as a normal clean person. I have to take mediacation to deal with every day living now. Marijuana is the worst drug out there as re-iterated by many doctors and councillors that worked on me. It stays in the fat deposits of the brain for ages and affects the way you make decisions in your every day life. Coming off other drugs such as heroin offer you a physical addiction whilst Marijuana is known to be a mental addiction. The mental addiction is harder to kick.
After education from professionals it is best to spread the word that Marijuana is NOT a safe drug by any means. I too though I was invincible but I was wrong. This drug nearly ended my marriage and my work life. Doing it reguarly will eventually get you to breaking point.
As mentioned I am now 8 days clean and plan to stick that way. I dont want to feel like a low life loser in a detox facility again.
Good luck to all who wish to quit and for those who dont happy days until you reach your breaking point.
Best Regards
June 10th, 2008 at 1:47 amPete
6 3 days now sober no weed no tabacco lots of surfing keeping busy dreaming every night awesome dreams like starring in your own movies i dream about getting stoned scoring wake up disappointed with myself then figure out it was just a dream. straight is the new bent. it is for me anyhow.love the honesty on this site after 19 years of weed on and off time for living
June 17th, 2008 at 4:22 amAm about to smoke my last spliff. Have been smoking 3.5 grams everyday for about 14-15 years. Am now 28. Am going to be bak here first thing tomorow morning and il tell you more about myself and my love-hate relationship with skunk
June 22nd, 2008 at 4:17 pmI have been drinking alcohol since 1995 and smoking weed since 1997 I now have acite pancreatitus from drinking and mental problems from the weed i have been to rehab and I amn 26 years old cant keep a job although i have managed to not get hooked on anything else (i have tried about every drug that is easy to get) ireally need to stop but i really need to find out why i do this
June 29th, 2008 at 9:46 amI have been smoking for 8 years. Heavily for 5 years.
.. im like … uh what new look 
.. they are like .. i dunno there is something about you. .. the fact that customers can sense a difference meant alot! i feel like i am in tune with everything.. my feelings .. peoples feelings.. my appearance.. the colours in the background are so much brighter. what i realized is… this one thing that makes me feel sooo good. that is only temporary.. it will keep me from all me dreams and everything i have in perspective. the negative aspects weight out the possitive ones. and the fact THAT I REACHED OF ROCKING FULL BOWLS BACK TO BACK.. TO BACK AND NOT FEEL SHIT.. THATS A FUCKING REALITY CHECK. things need to change.
pour yourself a round 2.
I have been wanting it out of my life for about a year and a half now. It all started associating with the wrong crowd. as many of you can relate. I got into a 2yr. relationship. He was the local Dealer. which did not help at all. never paid for it.made it WORSE. the relationship ended bad. i cut him off and the crowd that i associated with, they all decieved me like snakes. ( he was fucking everything that breathed, all my boys were his boys and i grew up with 70% of these people. they all had that silent respect of being *boys*) i started working like a freak. smoking like a CHAMP! i would pre roll all my joints before my day started, just so i could spark it up with no time wasted. then i had the bright idea of dealing. i started selling, so i could smoke for free. no prophit fr. it.
i started working out 3 years ago. i completely changed my body. i was still smoking heavily.esp. to fall asleep.i have been in martial arts for 3 years aswell. MARTIAL ARTS HAS BEEN MY BACKBONE TO HAVE THE STRENGTH TO GRAB ANYTHING BY THE HORNS AND HEAL WITH IT LIKE A SOLDIER. but i was still smoking. i liked it. i have now been managing a supplement store for a year and a half. there was aand 8 mmonth period where i was forced to work like a slave because of short staff. i raped mary jane.everything i loved * working out, martial arts was ripped out of my life. for 2 solid years i have been smoking bong hits. basically any moment i had. i started smoking before work. i didnt give a fuck. smoking before and after workouts. it got to the point i would turn to it to function. to even eat.
I eat so clean. i find the job that i have and the activities that i do are a good foundation but weed was overpowering everything. it neutrilized everything.i want to be a fire fighter, i have been training for it for months. it got to the point where i could rock a full bowl and now feel one thing. then i would get enraged of the fact that im paying for the shit. not feeling any benefits from it. i knew that it was a moment of full abuse. i became immune.i have been buying less, and smoking less, 1-3 bowls before bed. i went to a martial arts class, later on that night i had my last 2 bowls. i really tried to enjoy the buzz and cherish it in a weird way. i never trie dto quit. it has now been day 4 THC FREE. the first two days i had 8 anxiety attacks. first 2 nights i was shivering all night breaking into cold sweats. my emotions have been a roller coater. anything could make me snap. i met this guy at work. he is a fire fighter. in a way, ever since dating him, it motivated me to really be certain of this decision. i broke down yesterday and admitted my addiction. i thought he was gone forever. fortunatly i have his support. it means alot. one weird thing is… i feel high on life. i cannot explain it with words… people at work today asked … is this your new look
i feel my lungs are improving. in the morning i no longer wake up my whole house with the discomfort in my throat (u all know what im talking about.
a couple of things have helped me out:
* Music- I highly recommend Jack Johnson-Albums- In between dreams and brushfire fairytales. This music is great , i find it everyone loves it, all age groups, it makes me feel happy, and full of life.
* Drop down and give me 20!- during that urge , your at home, wanting to rip out your hair just for a toke, drop to the floor and do 20 push ups.
* water- pour yourself a HUGE glass of water and chug it back!!!!!! still craving
* This web site and all of your opinions and thoughts!!! i truly thought no one understood me. i found you guys on day one. and i feel at any moment where i may just snap. i will turn here.
i have never been so certain of anything in my life. i have a healthy life style i just need to really get this habit out. it just stuck because i have been hurt and alone for so long. it only numbed things temp. and why pay for a temp. feeling
Take a moment to just weight out the pros and cons. it will speak volumes.
SLEEP … i feel like a vampire. i hope it will get better.
Stay strong everyone!! there is always a way around a problem, the QUESTION IS: How bad do you want it to get better
July 13th, 2008 at 1:05 amMy ‘problem’ with marijuana pales in comparison to some of the testimonials I’ve read here, but I experience a similar self-loathing after, what is for me, ‘heavy’ use. For me, heavy use can be 2 good-sized hits from a chamber pipe. I’ve kept my usage very low and I’m easily blazed but, just as it takes very little to get me very high, my cognitive clarity suffers what seems an outsized effect from smoking a relatively paltry amount. I’m a grad student in a challenging program and when I feel my intellectual ability slowed or in any way compromised I feel despicably guilty. I treat marijuana as an indulgence but have found that it has become a necessity. I’ve recently discovered that some of my family members are heavy, closet smokers. They smoke multiple times a day. Me, if I smoked as much as they do, I can’t imagine maintaining the coordination to cross a street. I’ve tried to convince myself otherwise, but marijuana seems to have an inordinate effect on me. What I enjoy most is studying on Dexedrine the entire day and then, come nightfall, taking a deliciously cavernous hit that gorges itself on my created cerebral spaciousness. I never understood how someone could smoke so redundantly, multiple times a day; when I have, I feel the stupidity, the thickness, the slowness layering itself like amber resin over my sensory faculties. And it takes time, days and days, weeks, even, of sobriety before I have finally repealed this soggy idiocy. Anyway, what I mean to say, is that my recent usage pattern hasn’t allowed me enough time to recover, yet I feel a necessity to smoke. As a clinical neurotic, I’ve found that marijuana has allowed me to decompartmentalize my personality, unpack all of its good and plenty from its uptight lockbox. I was amazed to find that smoking enabled me to metabolize all of those forbidding nervous tensions and emit them as outright energy- a near psychotic light-beam of merry-making. The downside of all this is that I’ve begun to chemically manage my personality. If I’m not high, I’m a party-pooper to people who are accustomed to experiencing my jolly tailspin. I seem a different person and I realize that the next time I meet that person who, during our last meeting, I had so entertained with my ‘antic’, he/she will expect that same fun-loving, whimsical personality that is, really, only a momentary emanation from my psychic flameout. I want to continue smoking marijuana. I have achieved some of my greatest successes on account of being high- mostly social victories that would have been impossible to replicate without the shape-shift. In addition, some of my most enjoyable private moments have been those spent steeped in a meticulous marijuana miasma developing sustainable and workable realizations, usually personal or political. I feel that I can strike a healthy balance with marijuana, but as long as I depend on it for manufacturing a particular presentation, I am too beholden to it.
July 16th, 2008 at 6:01 pmI used to despise marijuana. That was because the only time I smoked was with fellow college kids who, afterwards, sat drooling in front of back-to-back episodes of Family Guy. I’m the sort that won’t stop talking. Everyone knows someone like that. Marijuana triggers a psychotic break in me and its immensity is trivializing and suffocating. My enjoyment of that feeling depends on managed, sustainable usage. Some part of me feels that marijuana has to be a part of my life if I want to derive and create any social pleasure from life.
Paulina.
So good for you ! Nobody has hot this site for a while, so good to se another hitting the wagon. I have written on here before, so troll though if u like. I stopped around easter time this year, had a couple of times when i had a smoke since, but have basically been off the dope for 4-5 months. I was a daily smoker for 30 years.
I found the insomnia the hardest, but it does get better, believe me. The anxiety ended after around one week, the sweats took 2 - 3 weeks but gradually improved. The complete insomnia lasted for around 2 weeks, and then very very gradually over a 3 month period did that improve. After 3 weeks i would get 2 hours sleep, after a month, 3 hours sleep. Now i sleep from around 11pm till 5.30am, more than what i had when i smoked ! And i drop off to sleep in a couple of minutes, I never thought that would happen, but it will for you too.
I recommend a fixed bedtime (maybe 10.30pm) and stick to that, even on weekends. No caffine after midday, not till you have conquered sleep again. A warm milk with honey when you do go to bed, camomile tea with honey at other times. A warm shower before bed. No hard excersise before bed. No alcohol, at least till you get this licked. You have to be a little hard on yourself in order to get you normal rythyms back, then you can afford to indulge a bit.
Good that you told the fire fighter. I had to tell my boss what was going on, as i wasnt sleeping at night and fading at work around 2pm, and just had to go home. He was cool, and him and all my friends saw me through that rough patch.
Anyway Pauline, theres a guy in Sydney wishing you luck, good health, and a good nights sleep to come !
July 21st, 2008 at 4:15 am