Hey Folks,

Well, I had a little to smoke again  today.  I keep finding it and not saying “No”.  In the grand scheme of things, this is still improvement.  This weekend is going to be very tough because I usually wake and bake, then get stoned all day.   I know I need to stop smoking weed, so I will be working hard toward this goal on the weekend – day by day.

Friday’s post will be much more detailed.

Good Night.

Hello Everyone,

Just checking in on Sunday night before I shut things down for the evening. I have had another good day today visiting friends and keeping them entertained. Being this busy is a natural mood lifter and because of this, I know that I can stop smoking weed!

I smoked again tonight. I gathered up the last of the bag that I had and smoked it once my company left a couple hours ago. It is hard to describe my current mood. I am disappointed about the relapses that I have faced in the previous week, but am also very optimistic about my ability to stop smoking weed. You’ll notice I put a days stoned counter on the bottom of the daily journal. This is another tool to help me keep on track.

I have noticed a huge difference in my behavior and efficiency when working on my journal in the past couple of days. A motivational behavior really kicks in when I smoke weed. Its almost like when I am stoned I slip into a passive, gathering information state, whereas when I am sober, I can gather AND disseminate information effectively. I would say I about twice as fast at blogging sober than stoned.

This week I am going to be writing about some relaxation techniques I have learned or practiced in the past. Releasing stress will be a priority this week and critical to my long term success.  I want to do acupuncture, just hope that medical will cover it.

I have no more pot left, and won’t be going to out much next week. See you Monday.

Days Sober 0
Days Stoned 5

Went out late tonight to watch a movie, so I’ll keep it brief. Friends are still visiting and we are having a great time. We all smoked tonight before going to a movie, so I didn’t make it through today either. Old habits die hard. I still have a tiny bit left, so we will all finish it tommorow so that I can make a clean entrance into the work week. I didn’t throw out my rolling papers and box last time. I am going to throw away all of my paraphernalia Sunday night. I don’t have any pipes or bongs anymore, so just the scissors, rollies, and weed box.

Days Sober 0
Days Stoned: 4

I have to keep this entry short as I have friends visiting.  I worked hard and kept very busy today.  I feel like my head is clearing up and it is getting easier to focus for short periods of time.  I still have a cold and sore throat, so feel slightly under the weather.     Each day I am sober, things will get cleared and brighter.    I am going to spend more time reading, learning, and maybe even blogging!

But I smoked today as well.   I got a little bit last night and smoked this evening while I cleaned, and before my friends arrived.  It felt great, no burnout, my head was clear for the rest of the night.   What a horrible thing.      Before I wrote this, I didn’t feel bad about it, but now that I see it on the page, it is really upsetting.  WTF am I doing if I want to quit that badly.   I can’t smoke just a little….its the addict in me.   I will dispose of the rest of the pot I have left. About $20 worth.  Sober Tomorrow!

Days Sober: 0

I have put a lot of time into this blog in the last week.  It is up and running now and developing nicely, even though the poll is still messed up.   Next week I promised myself not to drink or smoke.  It will be easier not to smoke if I am not in a drinking environment.   I will also not be exposed to as many regular smokers, thus will be able to avoid that temptation.  I am going to have to develop some resistance to social pressures, and will spend part of the next week investigating how.

Happy Weekend Everyone.

Bad News, I smoked again today. In fact I am still a little stoned. I won’t be smoking Friday – Sunday as I have friends in town, so this should be a great way to get a couple of days under my belt.   Regardless I am not going to give up.  I am going to learn How to Quit Smoking Pot!

I will not be going out to any party spots or pubs next week. Every relapse I have had involves the party crowd and the pubs near my house. I know that if I stay away from them, I will have a much better week. I have been eating a lot better and my energy level has been improving despite the slip ups I have made this week. I finally finished my Why I Quit article. I keep reading this for motivation. One commentator, Cholo-Barco, has had some great insight on other reasons to quit. I will definitely be exploring and writing more about his ideas.

I am still fighting a sore throat, with a mild fever and headache. Weed is the wrong medicine for this type of sickness!

Days Sober 0